Her Teacher

Chapter 23

Everything just came full cycle. It was too much and I didn't like the fact that my mother and Clarke had a past, honestly I feel like a fool. Clearly there is more to the story, which I don't want to know.

"Lexa?" I have been locked in my room for three days now, it's been a month since the entire drama happened. I'm sure mom has been told of my failure in my classes. However mother hasn't called though I know she checks on things. "Lexa get down here. Someone is here to see you."

Dragging my feet downstairs.

I didn't want to be around people right now. Animals yes, maybe, just a fish in a bowl. Other animals have too much energy.

With my disinterests I make it downstairs. Only to find Costia looking around the house. I have been avoiding her because she's become ballsy, touching me whenever she got the chance, it is getting on my nerves and now she's standing in my home with a smile that makes me wonder how long she's been planning to come here.

"Costia. Hey." She smiles.

"Hello..." her head in the direction of my grandmother.

My eyes feel heavy like I could fall asleep right now.

"I'll be in the kitchen, Lexa offer your friend something to drink." Of course grandmother, let me offer her something to stay longer than I need her to. I don't respond.

After an awkward silence she smiles up at me glancing up the stairs. "Can we head upstairs, I feel like I haven't seen you in a year."

And I feel suffocated.

"We can sit in the living room." There is no way I will lead her, I don't know how she still doesn't get it. I don't like her, end of story. "So what's up, I was about to help grandmother with something."

She looks behind her before moving too close to me. I decide to sit to increase the distance but even that isn't working. Her hand slides up against my thigh. "You don't know how happy I am to see you." I think I can take a guess. "These past days you've been distance." Sliding her fingers upwards. I grip her fingers and toss her hand off.

"Costia if you can't separate our friendship from whatever this is then maybe we shouldn't be friends." Shock flashes behind her eyes.

"What are you saying?"

"Oh jeez"

How annoying. I get up and kindly ask her to leave and when she didn't seem to understand that either, I left her alone and headed back to my room.

One month of this shitty life and I can't take it anymore. Today I had gotten a text telling me I'm supposed to visit the principle. So here I am standing outside the principal's office. Don't know if it's Raven, haven't seen her around much lately. And hasn't reached out, though she constantly talks to grandma, honestly I'm glad that she's given me space process not that I even analyzed the situation.

The assistant tells me to go in and I quickly make my way. The faster I get in the sooner I can go back to class.

When I shut myself inside, her scent hits me first. She's sitting at the desk. Typing, she knows I'm here so why is she pretending right now?

Against my will and judgment, I take a seat and wait for her to make eye contact. I want to tell her how much I have missed her. The places I would like to go with her. She's still beautiful.

"Good morning," her voice floats to my ears, she doesn't say my name and it irritates me. "I'm sure you have been warned about your grades. Our school policy does not tolerate failing consistently."

What is she doing?

When she looks up I immediately bow my head.

There is no way I want to look at her when she's like this.

She continues to ramble on and on, while I stare at my fingers until tears threaten to spill. "I can't do this."

I make it to the door before she calls after me.

"Lexa please wait." I stop but don't turn. Her heels click against the floor. Clarke stands right behind me. Reaching for the blinds and shutting them. "Sorry for that."

Her voice soft and sincere.

Sighing, I feel so tired right now. "If you are going to pretend..."

"I don't know what to say Lexa." Like an idiot I turn to face her and she offers me a tiny smile. "I missed you. Maybe I should have just said that."

Or you could kiss me. Just saying either would have worked.

Oh jeez, the tears are now pouring. I move into her embrace, placing my head on her shoulder. Clarke welcomes me by pulling me closer. As I cry my frustration out, I understand why she acted indifferent towards me but acceptance isn't easy.

We take seat. Well I take a seat while she leans against the desk between my legs. I only notice because she's rubbing my exposed thighs as the skirt moved up in the moment.

"I hate seeing you cry." Her eyes dart across my face. Pulling herself back, she walks round the table and sits behind her desk.

Space to make it clear our terms are still the same.

Would it be wrong if I sat on her lap because that is what I want to do?

Without thinking I make my way to her.

"Lexa?" a warning in her voice.

I'm aware that the door is unlocked but I need to feel us again. Feel the sparks. Are we still the same or has the situation changed us.

"I'll keep my hands to myself." She smiles at me spinning her chair to accommodate me on her lap.