Flashback |Yeongyu/Beomjun|

Eleven

*Beomgyu's pov (first person)*

Yeonjun took one look at me before grabbing my arm and dragging me away. He didn't stop until we were both outside. And it was raining. Great.

"What the hell, Yeonjun?" I jerked my arm away, and Yeonjun turned towards me.

"Beomgyu, listen to me."

"No. I fucking won't. I cared about you and you talked shit about me." I crossed my arms.

"Please, let me expla-"

"No. I'm done with your shit, Yeonjun. Let me be happy. Forget you ever met me. Just fuck off." My own words hurt me, but I didn't let it show. Yeonjun just stared at the ground and I turned away. But at the last second he spoke.

"Beomgyu, there's a reason I said things, it's because I was-"

"I'M NOT A JOKE, YEONJUN!" I yelled. "Don't you get it?!?! You treat me like a joke."

"I love you, though... I don't think you're a joke..." 

I slowly turned back towards him as he whispered the words. Angry and sad tears forming in my eyes.

"It's too late. You're too late. My love wasn't- isn't a joke, Yeonjun. Just go back to whatever hell house you came from."

"Beomgyu..."

"You know what? You think I'm annoying. And childish. So go back to hating me. Soobin actually loves me. You had your chance but you missed it."

"Beomgyu-"

"I'm not done." I snapped. "Maybe you saw it as an opportunity to mess with my heart because no one actually gives a fuck about you, and you thought it would be funny. But I cared. It was sincere. I. Loved. You. But I'm not getting hurt again. Fuck the feeling that I'm complete around you. I'm probably fucking delusional. If you think I'll listen to more lies, you're crazier then I thought."

"It's not a lie!" Yeonjun said, his voice raised more. "I took one look at that boy, Soobin, or whatever his name is, with his arms around you and it tore me apart. I'm fucking jealous, Beomgyu. Yes, I said things, but that was so my own feelings would go away! And so would yours. But now that they are starting to... I hate it."

I closed my eyes. "You said those things for that reason? You know how much that hurt me to hear you said stuff? At first I was shocked, then sad. But now I'm fucking angry. There's easier ways to get rid of feelings, Yeonjun!"

I slowly opened my eyes as tears streaked Yeonjun's cheeks. It broke my heart.

"You're such an idiot." I took a couple cautious steps forward and wiped the tears off of his cheeks. Soon they were replaced with rain droplets.

Yeonjun looked into my eyes.

"I know... I thought I was doing the right thing. My dad threatened you, Beomgyu. But... I can't help wanting you to stay." His voice was choked.

"I don't care, Yeonjun." I whispered. "He can try doing whatever he wants. But you're your own person who... lost their chance."

"Beomgyu, don't do this to me." Yeonjun begged through tears. 

"Don't do this to you?" I asked. "It's not exactly easy for me, Yeonjun. But you brought this on yourself."

"I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry." Yeonjun whispered. "I thought I was protecting you. But I'm fucking selfish. And I want you. It has to be you. This isn't about what feelings we get when we're around each other anymore. It's about how I feel about you, genuinely."

"Yeonjun, you just aren't listening!" I said, feeling a bit frustrated. "It's over. I was stupid for talking to you that day, alright?"

"But you got what you wanted. You said you would make me fall for you by the end of the week. Look at me, I'm a desperate, sobbing mess for you!"

My eyes blurred more. "Please just go back to the way you were."

"I can't! You made me love you, Beomgyu. I can't do it without you anymore."

"Stop. Just stop. You're only going to make things worse." I said, turning away from him. I couldn't look at him. At how sad and desperate he looked.

"Do you really love Soobin?" He whispered. It caught me off guard.

"Yes." I lied.

"But... you have to be mine."

"It's your fault I'm not. I could have been." I said, still not looking at him.

"But... remember, you said you craved me. You said that a kiss from me is all you want now."

"I thought it was." I whispered sadly. "Maybe I'm just stupid. And maybe too in love." I finally looked at him.

"Let me fix this, please. I can make it better!" Yeonjun sobbed and he dropped to his knees, grabbing my hands desperately. I lowered myself in front of him and wiped a couple tears off his cheeks.

"Don't do this to yourself, okay?" I whispered. "It's too late to fix it. It's my fault for approaching you. Please just move on. Don't talk to me, alright? We'll be better off if we just forget each other. Just like you wanted. Find someone who loves you. I have Soobin now."

I stood up and started walking away, leaving a sobbing Yeonjun behind as words failed him.

(This chapter was so sadmdjdiwksmsjs I feel bad for Yeonjun now 😭😭😭

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