A Red Rose - Hyunlix

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Hyunjin's POV

A day had passed, and Felix hadn't woken up. The doctors came by regularly to check on him, while I wasn't without him for a moment. I watched him all day, talked to him as if he was awake, hoping he could hear me. I stood there, attached to the hope that he would wake up or give some sign of life.

The doctors said this:

-The chances that he wakes up within a week are 1%, and then progressively decrease. After 3 months of coma the odds are less than 0.0001.-

And I had hope, Felix was strong. Felix would wake up, I was sure of it.

What if...it wasn't like that? He would stay like for life, and sooner or later someone would have to pull the plug that kept him alive. Tears came quickly, in response to my thoughts. If he didn't wake up. I would carry the weight of his death on my conscience all my life. And I wasn't going to make it. I've never told him "I love you" and maybe I never will because of me.

I looked at his face. He was beautiful, with smooth pale skin, a sprinkle of freckles on his nose and cheeks, almond-shaped eyes and soft black hair. It was perfect. I stroked his cheek with the back of my hand, feeling guilty for even such a light touch.

-Sorry- I whispered. I looked at his neck, covered by a few hickeys on the right side, reviving the memory of a few days ago.-Where are you Felix? Will you come back to me? ...Sorry, I didn't mean to do this to you-

I heard the door open and Minho and Han entered the room. They nodded in greeting and I reciprocated.

-How are you?- Han asked me.

-If I told you that I'm fine, I'd be lying.-

They approached the hospital bed and looked at Felix, placing a box of chocolates on the bedside table as a present.

Han couldn't help himself and tears fell as he brought a hand to his mouth. Minho hurried to wrap him in a hug, giving him a kiss on the head. 

They were engaged, and I envied them. Minho whispered something in Han's ear and seemed to recover.

They loved each other, they had had the chance and they accepted it. I was an asshole not to make it in time because now I may never do it again. I may never get the chance again. I was an asshole. A real asshole. And now I was suffering the consequences, crushing my soul.

Minho turned to me and said:

-Hey, don't worry, he'll wake up.-I shook my head, looking down. There was hope, but it was minimal.

-Sorry,- I said as I hurried to wipe away the tears that had formed in my eyes.

It was my fault that they were suffering now, it was my fault.

-Don't worry, he'll recover- Minho said.

-Aren't... aren't you engaged?- Han asked, settling down on one of the chairs.

I shook my head. 

-W-we're intimate, but not engaged,- I said.

-What's on his neck?-

Minho placed his hand on Han's thigh and whispered the answer in his ear. Han smiled and looked at me:

-So intimate?-

-Yes...- I answered.

-Oh, I didn't expect that-

I hinted at a smile, thinking back to that afternoon. The afternoon before the disaster.

-What happened yesterday...?- Minho asked, trying to be delicate.I waited a second before answering, biting my lip in excitement.

-I.N. I was supposed to see I.n, but I knew something was up, and when I walked away I realized it was a trap. I arrived home and heard a shot.- I stopped to regulate my breathing which had accelerated due to the memories.

-He shot Felix, so I pretended to be on his side and kissed him to distract him. And then...I took the gun and shot him- I stopped and sighed. A treacherous tear fell and I finished:

-But it was too late- I looked down, giving full vent to the tears that began to fall as if there was no tomorrow. It was too late to save him, to realize I was all wrong, it was too late to tell him "I love you."

-Ehm, Hyunjin- Minho called me back

-Yup?-

-I.N is alive, they operated on him and he's fine now- I opened my eyes suddenly, anger flared up inside me asking me to let it out.

-Where is he?- I asked

-A few rooms away from this one, we went to see him earlier.- he said calmly, while I tried to keep my fingers still, trembling with the desire to kill him.

-W-what did he tell you?- I asked.

-He said he went to see Felix and you shot him and Felix by mistake.-

I grit my teeth, clenching my jaw. What a piece of shit, I want to kill him, I thought.

-Oh? And who do you think?- I asked, running out of patience. I would have gone straight to I.n and cracked his skull, at least he wasn't spewing bullshit and lies anymore.

-Honestly, your version seems more plausible, but I don't understand why he should have shot them making such a...organized trap- Han said.

-I.n loved me, not in a healthy way. He has already tried to kiss me in the past and he has already told me that he likes him and that according to him Felix was the problem that hindered our relationship, he wanted to eliminate him from my life thinking that then I had chosen him.- 

I said looking at a fixed point in the room, with a ringing in my ear. I've never hated him so much.

-Wait, are you saying that I.n liked you?- Han asked dumbfounded.

-Yes, he confessed it to me in person...- I said, they didn't seem convinced.

-So I.n, he lied...- said Minho and I nodded.

-I'll show you the hidden cameras if you want...- I asked, knowing full well that I wouldn't be able to watch that scene again.

I grabbed my phone and opened the app, starting the recording. The video started, Felix backed into the bedroom with his hands raised and his face streaked with tears. I.n walked into the room as he yelled something incomprehensible and Felix turned slowly, his legs shaking and his body shaking with sobs.

Han covered his mouth with his hand as tears quickly formed in my eyes. I tried to hold back, the video went on with the passing of the seconds.

 I.n shot Felix, who screamed in pain, falling onto the bed. I clenched my jaw, trying to compose myself. I.n whispered something in his ear and he cried even more as the blood flowed from his body.I entered the room, shouting at I.N. Then I walked towards I.n kissing him.

I closed my eyes so as not to relive that disgusting moment. I kept my eyes closed, knowing what happened next.

I waited for the video to finish and then I shifted my gaze to the faces of the two guests. Han was crying, Minho was quite traumatized by the video.

-Sorry, I didn't mean...- I said, feeling guilty for scaring them. 

But they had wanted the truth.

-O-okay, I think we'll go now- Han said looking at Minho.

I was pretty sure I scared them too much, especially Han. But I was also sure that they believed me now.

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