A Red Rose - Hyunlix

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Felix's POV

After a few days I was completely back to normal. I was back in school, denying any gossip about me and my demise but at least I wasn't bullied and abused anymore, thanks to Hyunjin. Only thanks to him.

-I'm back- I said, closing the door behind me, Hyunjin was in the kitchen and I joined him. Unfortunately a cold had forced him to stay home from school for a few days and so he was busy preparing lunch for me every day. He had a heart of gold just like mine and this thing made us even more alike; the only difference is that he tended to disguise his kindness behind designer clothes and "vulgar" photos while I acted as it came naturally to me.

I hugged him from behind, smiling and leaning my head on his back:

-How are you feeling today?- I asked as he turned to kiss the back of his hand.

-Better, I'll be back tomorrow.- he said, as I sat down at the table, with the steaming food standing out from the plate.

I was cured of anorexia, almost completely but now I was able to eat full meals and even small afternoon snacks, well, sometimes a panic attack would surprise me during lunch or dinner. And they were also the worst times because my mind wanted to go back to when I used to take laxatives in dangerous amounts. My mind sometimes made me relive those moments, as if it wanted to go back to when I suffered through everything and basked in the pain as if it were a comfortable puddle outside of humanity, which I sank into as I stood there, sinking into the infinity of pain bound by fear. Because remember, there is no limit to fear.

 However I was fine, especially with Hyunjin, indeed, we had become intimate, and it was also beautiful and comforting ... obviously we had only stopped at those two times when he had thrown me on the bed to give me hickeys on my neck. We had never gone further also because I know he still liked girls. At school he was with them, he still acted like a bad boy but I knew he was all a fake, he had already explained to me a few times that he was just to maintain his reputation. It was so easy for him to put on a mask, as if it were a very natural thing. I should have learned from him...

After lunch, Hyunjin went shopping, so I stayed home alone, the bell rang, and I went to see. a familiar face appeared in front of me.

-Hi, you're Felix, right?- he asked

-Yes exactly, and you are...- I stopped to think where I had seen that face, digging into my visual memory.

-Changbin. A friend of Hyunjin's.- he said, giving me a warm smile.

-Oh here. Are you looking for Hyunjin?-

-Yes exactly-

-He's not here but come back soon, you can come in if you want- I said, opening the door completely open and moving aside to let him advance. He entered confidently, looking around and I took the opportunity to observe him better.

His black hair fell on his forehead, in a soft fold, his eyes of the same color were rounded and almond-shaped and his sculpted physique gave him the air of a bodybuilder. The buttons of his black shirt looked like they were about to pop at any moment, the same thing with his sleeves, curled up to his forearm. It was beautiful, I couldn't open my mouth about this.He caught me staring at him and I blushed, looking away quickly.

-D-do you want something? A-a glass of water, a tea or a coffee?- I asked, breaking the tension that was created between us.

-A coffee, thank you.- she said and he followed me into the kitchen, settling down on one of the chairs.

-Did you recover after the coma?- He asked, and even if it was a sore point for me, I decided to force myself and answer:

-Oh yes. I'm back to life as it was before completely- I said, with a nervous laugh.

-Sorry to ask but...are you Hyunjin's boyfriend?-

-No- I said abruptly, hurrying to answer, I turned to bring him the coffee.

-Okay, good- he said and I raised my head to look at him, waiting for justifications.

-I mean, Hyunjin is a good person, don't get me wrong, it's just that after a relationship he was very fond of he was no longer able to love...He started to become the typical "bad boy", he went to parties to fuck and he didn't recognize himself anymore- he said and I waited for him to continue.

-After a few years he recovered, even if certain habits remained a bit dirty...- he said, drinking his coffee. Oh, and so Hyunjin was influenced by a girl...

-What was her name?- I asked

-Eunji, she was a beautiful girl, dyed blond, almond and amber eyes, a nice physique and also kind, after two years of relationship, Hyunjin saw her making out with another guy, she had used the excuse of work to go to a night club.- he stopped for a moment to take a sip from his cup of coffee.

-He was shocked. It was his first relationship that lasted that long yet he was devastated. She was alone with a whore who only loved him for the money-

He sighed and watched me waiting for a reaction that didn't come as I stared somewhere in the room behind his powerful shoulders.

-And what about your love life?-

-Ehm, I'd like to tell you that I'm a virgin but my father abused me...- I said with a tight smile, joking about it.

-Oh, bad story...Have you ever had a girlfriend or boyfriend?-I shook my head: 

-No, never. Let's say I'm a lonely person and the socializations I've had have turned into bullying or abuse...- I said, alternating my gaze at his calamitous eyes and the door behind him.

-I've had several girlfriends, nothing long-lived or interesting, just trivial things of a few months ...-  he said casually.

-But, excuse me for asking, why do you live at Hyunjin's house?- He asked, once again casually; yet he made me feel like a parasite on society who appropriated other people's things. He didn't know about the fragment that had just formed in my heart, so small but so devastating, it burned my chest. I took a deep breath, "sharing traumas can ease them" the psychologist's words came back to me, and now was the perfect time to apply them. I tortured my fingers, and felt my eyes water.

-Um...he knew that my father was abusing me, so he decided to make me run away from home and now he wants...m-me to stay with h-him.- I said, while a tear fell on the table, I hurried to clean it away.

-How many times did he abuse you a week?- He said with such nonchalance that I frowned at him, he had a serious but very normal expression, as if he wasn't upset by the situation even a little bit.

-Sometimes even 2 or 3 times a d-day, it depended on how work was going...- I said, still looking down, while the feelings of guilt stained my cheeks in the form of tears. I moved my eyes to him but he didn't let any emotion leak, so I got angry.

-What kind of problems do you have? I have been harassed since I was a child, beaten, bullied! Can't you show at least a little empathy!?- I snapped and the next moment the tears took over, they start to slide and dance down my cheeks, until they reach my chin and then fall gracefully.

I brought my knees up to my chest and burying my face in them, I began to cry softly. I heard Changbin get up and approach, until he gently took my wrists and moved them, doing the same thing with my legs, until they were straightened and rested on the floor. He took my face in his hands and wiped my tears with his thumbs, I felt my skin ignite and a tingling spread under his touch, extending up to his stomach. I looked into his eyes and finally saw all the emotions that he was trying to hide before: they were a mix of sadness, compassion and repentance, accompanied by his shining eyes of him.

-Sorry, I was afraid that if I showed emotions I would make you cry, but I was wrong. Sorry- he said and then he kissed me on the forehead, which made me blush. 

How adorable was this boy?

Author Corner

Hi Guys. Get ready, next chapters are THE HELL, yes. Something bad is going to happen, but don't worry! In the meantime I'm writing chapter 35 and together with 34 they are the ones you've been waiting for. They will be released on March 26/25 and April 1/2, I'll update next weekend <3 <3

And, tysm for the support <3<3