TW⚠️ SH scars
It is 3am in the morning and I am looking in the mirror on the bathroom wall. The lights are white. It hurts my eyes. I look at my body. How did I end up here? When did I start doing this. I hold on to the bathroom sink. I feel light headed. Then I see my right arm (I am a lefty). Ah for fucks sake. Again?!
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. How am I going to hide it this time? Fuck.
What about not hiding? What about showing it? No. That is weird. People will think it's weird. They will judge, just like the people who know.
Even though I see a lot of people on the streets with fresh cuts and scars. I see them. I am always trying to find people who go through the same thing. But nobody talks about it with me. It's like they don't trust me. I need someone to talk to.
I don't even see myself in the mirror anymore. I am so lost in my thoughts.
Wait. I forgot to introduce myself. Hi mind, my name is Callie, I am 18 years old. I am fucked in the head. I am lost in this world. I don't even recognise myself anymore.
I walk out of the bathroom. I hear my dad snoring in his room. I open the door to the hallway. Fuck, why is this door so loud?
I stumble down the stairs. I turn on the kitchen lights. I need water. I drink the water greedily. I need some air now.
I grab my coat and keys. It is 3 degrees outside. Damn, i hate winter. I light my sigarette and just exist. As always. Just existing.
I feel my body calming down. Those sigarettes always make me feel relaxed. It's not even weed.
I look at the time. 3.31am. Ah fuck, my alarm goes at 5.45am. I need to go to sleep now. Callie, put the sigarette down. And go to sleep, for fucks sake.
When I am finally in bed my thoughts go to another place. A place where I don't want to be. A place that scares the living shit out of me.
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🥀 Hi guys! This is the first chapter! English is not my first language, don't come at me. Are my writing skills okay? Or do you want to see something else? Please let me know :)
Cate will soon be introduced!
A reminder for you: drink your water. Eat your vitamines and sure as hell don't smoke (Guilty your honour.).
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FanfictionHi everyone! This story is about a girl, named Callie. She struggles with her mental health and with her life at school. You will read how she lives and what she does. This book includes trigger warnings. After some time she meets a certain someone...
