The Raven in the Night

Your Apartment

i stepped into your apartment building,
hoping to finally meet you after all these years,
how excited i was until i found out,
that you kept your doors shut.

please open them for me, i shouted,
please just open your doors, i pleaded,
why won't you open up your only home to me?
is there a mistake to your apartment floor?
surely that isn't it.

it was wrong of me to let you in my house that day,
cause' now you wouldn't even allow me to be in yours,
i want to be happy with you and your apartment,
but you're only closing me off.

seriously,
is there anything wrong with me?
is there something about me that you absolutely hate?
just let me enter your personal home,
as i want to help with the unpacking too,
i also want to be able to rearrange those boxes of thoughts of yours on the shelves of emotions,
but all you do right now is,
closing me off from day to night.

you're pretty funny too,
hearing your meddling thoughts through the door,
talking to death or so it seems,
why every so often,
a mention of death is stated in your everlasting words in my head?
are you planning to leave in that lonely home of yours?
are you trying to not make any connections with me or anyone at all?

sobbing on the floor,
seeing you still not opening that door of yours,
i just want to get to know you more,
i want to be able to understand you,
I just want you to be loved by me,
but after all these moments,
i left.

i finally left the apartment building with a heart broken in pieces.