The Raven in the Night

Feelings For Him

is this it?
have i been staring at him for far too long?

it all started with just a thought,
a bad one perhaps,
but all i wanted was just him,
just him with his swaggering walk,
him with his way of starting his talk,
his messy tangled black hair,
and the love he has for indie music and art,
made me feel more than anything else in my world.

but i know,
he will never ever be mine to keep,
his heart will never pound ever so deeply for me,
our lives will not at all intertwine,
it's because his love already belongs to someone else.

it sucks,
it hurts,
all i could do was only think entirely about him,
but it breaks my tattered heart when he babbles and chatters,
about how he has finally met his soulmate for life,
when i thought i was the only one for him.

i'm aware i'm not anywhere near perfect,
but I thought I could do so much for you,
like taking you out to your favourite cafe,
playing your favourite video games together,
or maybe even just have a small talk under the blinking stars,
even so, you finally caught someone else instead.

i'm sorry,
sorry for feeling this way,
but in the end,
you'll never know,
as long as we're on two separate roads,
roads that lead to two different destinations,
you will never know how i feel.