Today was horrible.
This was not because of Christian (ex), this is because of Evelyn (best friend).
I don't know if you're reading this.
Or I don't know if you're going to read this 20 or 50 or 100 days from now.
But I'm telling you right now, that starving yourself is not the answer.
You tell me that harming myself doesn't help.
So I don't understand as to why you're harming yourself.
I haven't self harmed in 2 weeks.
And you help me Evelyn.
You help me stay strong.
But, when I'm trying to help you, you're not letting me.
Instead, you're pushing me away.
You say that starving yourself is healthy.
Well guess what? It's not healthy at all.
I love you so much.
And I don't know why you're starving yourself.
I don't know if you're starving yourself because of him. But I'm just letting you know that starving yourself is no way a good thing.
I'm crying now.
Are you happy?
Fuck, I swear Evelyn, I know how "lecturing" you or whatever you want to call it is annoying you.
But I'm doing all this because I really do care about you babe.
Me and you might have just started getting very close in 5th grade, but we've been super close since then.
We might have hated each other's guts in third grade.
But that was a long time ago.
That was the past.
So let's make the fact that you want to starve yourself a past too.
We love you.
There are a lot of people here who love you.
Physical appearance is irrelevant.
I love you very much Evelyn, and this all is very bad.
"Everything will be okay in the end. If things aren't okay, then it's simply not the end."
Remember that, because that quote has helped me stay strong.
And I hope it makes you strong too.
