Imaginary Therapist (It's much cheaper)

Stress

This entire thing has made me physically unwell. This has caused me so much stress over the last 2-3 days that I've been unable to sleep properly because of a headache that won't go away. I can't eat. It hurts to eat. I have a constant stomachache. I couldn't even eat a handful of grapes without feeling sick. It hurts so much. I'm hungry to the point that it hurts to feel empty but I can't do anything because I have no appetite and this, even though it's been 2-3 days, has lead me to lose weight which is the opposite of everything I've been trying to do for the past month. I had to sit in a call with a friend and they had to sit and listen to me and unfortunately hear one of the worst breakdowns I've had over all for the pure fact that I was trying so hard not to let then hear me cry. I don't know how you expect us to continue if you're gonna stay on mute in calls. This is just making me think that I've wasted time. What's the point of being in a call if the person you're wanting to talk to is just gonna stay on mute? I could've just not joined and would've gotten the same result. If you actually knew that depth of shit that this situation has caused me to go through physically as well as mentally, you'd probably get angry that I didn't tell you. I lied to you okay? When you asked if this was your fault and I said no, it wasn't. I didn't want to lose you, it physically hurt to even think that I was close to losing you. So I lied and now I'm here writing this chapter of just pure regrets. I just don't know what to do anymore. For the what will be probably the first and only time, I had to reach out to a different friend for help and just let them know that I was struggling. I've never wanted to involve anyone else in anything that I'm dealing with but I didn't really have a choice with this.