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Blame

After everything that's happened, I don't blame you. I don't blame the ones that came before you. In every situation, I only had myself to blame. There's nothing much else to say. If I listened to myself then nothing like this would have never happened to me. They all just did what they knew. If I hadn't listened to them then nothing would've happened. I keep thinking, maybe if I learned to endure it, I'd end up liking it. I'd end up accepting that everything that happened was okay and completely fine. That it didn't make me feel bad afterwards. But after a couple years, I've had enough of enduring this. And it's all come to a boiling point with you. I think that I've finally hit a limit with everything going on. I can deal with losing friends and I'm at a point where if I lost everyone I'm closest too, then it'd be hard but I'd deal with it. I don't want to endure anything else anymore and I won't be enduring it. And after all this, I still don't blame you in fact I thank you, for waking me up from everything that I've been apart of. I can finally fucking move on from this shit. Once again there is no one to blame other than myself and now that I can get away from this shit, I'll take the opportunity. I showed you kindness and you showed me possession. I won't be showing kindness to you anymore even if we remain friends. You asked me to stand up for myself before walking all over me so don't worry, I'll stand up for myself and if you wish to leave, you can by your own will and want. I jus wanted to be happy with friends but if I can't get this then I'll think of something else. To be honest, all I've learnt from my past is that emotions get in the way so much.