Pelangi setelah hujan

Curse

Isn't it weird?
I love what we had.
I love what we shared together.
I love me and you in those old pictures in my gallery.
I love it. When i see it, I cant help but smile. I cant help but reminiscing the good old days.
I smiled genuinely happy in those films, i cried bcs that's the happiest year in my life.

I forgot when the last time i ever smile and laugh like that. You know, things are different now and i learned so much which i thankful dearly but its not gonna outweigh how grateful i am when you still around.

People tends to say, after a relationship ends "its the good memories that hurt" ya i felt that. Didn't appear only to love relationship but also to friendship and family. Once you break the bonds, it will never gonna be the same anymore. And half of it, you just kinda miss it.

"If we cross path again in the future what will it be?" "Do u think we can do this?" "Do our love strong enough to go for the countless times?"

Like what i said, i love what we had. What we used to have. But i have no idea. Maybe i already lose hope. Did i really hope if i reread the same book, there will be a chapter that eventually gives a good endings? Gambling on a plain miracle.

" you don't want to be with her, but you know you only want her"

Maybe this is my curse.
Just like how much i wanted me to move forward, its just how much i want to go back the time that we once had.

More like, as much as i despise you, i still love you.