Remember when we used to gather around over a birthdays, or just to sleepover or go for a simple meet up and talk for hours? I missed that moment with family and friends. We growing up pretty fast. I feel like it was just yesterday when we get separated to a different class and the day you moving to a new house where i help you cleaned it almost for a week before you move in.
No matter how sweet the memories is, sometimes things just have to be where exactly they are. And sometimes, we are doing us a favor just by letting it stay at the back of our head. Of course we will always missed the old us, the happy us, the crazy us and nothing could ever replace the moment that we enjoyed together. Zilch! Nada!
Just as hard as i sigh right now, this is what adulting do to us. We no longer can go back or try to do the same memories. We can't. Because life goes on. We become much wiser to understood that we can miss it how much we want but still don't have the heart to do it again. I hate to admit that. But that's what adulting means right? We outgrow each other.
Because for the first time in my life i understand that, me.. yes me.. I don't own anyone. And I learned to let go, and accept what already happened in the past, happens for a reason & it is what it is. Times doesn't heal. But substantially, we could do better in see in different side of life.
And its okay to finally let things go. I will forever cherished the moment that we once had.
I thanked for everything. Pretty much a whole new difference perspective comes to into my life. The way i see love,life,friendship,family are so much different now. The way i process my feelings are so much more different. I no longer busy telling people what I'm up to. I am so used to being alone. Life is a bit messy, lonely and tough. But i should be fine. Because having myself should be enough. I do hope someday i can be open up, and see life in more colours than just a black and white from what i have seen these nowadays. I hope. Until then, i can finally make peace with myself.
Alhamdulillah. Only need Allah. Rely 100% on Him. Only Him. Insha Allah.
Au revoir~
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