[TAENYFic] 10 Years to Realization (completed)

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She's very devouted girl, of course her father is a priest while i'm a girl who haven't a religion, i just believe God is one and exist. Hah.

Point to win Taeyeon = -9999... Tiffany=9999.

I can't win her heart. I never can win her heart. I never can win.

7 years live with her, having unknown feelings her between hate and love. 1 year ran from her for searching the answer of my feelings for her. Then i know it's a love, a crazy love, impossible love. So I ran again for 2 years,then i understand it's a love but only my love with many things againts it and the realization of i can't be with her bite me.

I want to fight for my love, but i know i can't againts God, no-i can againts God but she can't againts him. And love one sidded love is a flaw, couldn't be perfect and transform into real love.

So after 10 years, i giving up- i giving in. I know i couldn't take her heart, i know i couldn't make mer mine, i know i couldn't be with her forever.

That's why i want to meet her today, but God seem never want we meet up again, haha you are mean to me God.

But even God seem so mean to me, i still thanked to Him. Although i can't have her as my girl, atleast i can have her as a friend or bestfriend or.. i don't know maybe more than it but less than a lover. I'm still happy have that bond.

The bond that i can explain what it is, but i'm sure she know that is exist. The bond that invisible, but i'm sure she feel the same with it. The amazing bond that everyone can't have.. I hope it's indestructible bond, because i have nothing if you not feel the same with this bond.

Because i have give up for you.. Now i'll try to change my love for you to a normal feel as a friend eventhough i know my love for you wouldn't change.

"You are crying!!!!"

I hear Krystal yelled and immediately handed me a tissue. "I'm not crying." I said it flatly as i wipe the tears on my cheek. This always happened when i think about her, cry.

"Uh lie!" she yelled again, why she's so loud! She drag the chair closer to me, "Reall, why are you crying?Err... i don't know your name..." she look at me with the puppy eyes, "Can i know your na-"

"I'm Kim Taeyeon." I cleared my throat, "Nice to meet you Krystal, just call my name Taeyeon even though you are younger than me."

"Can i call you unnie?"

"Sure."

"Why are you cry-"

"I'm not crying."

"But tears-"

"No I'm not." I sighed and i look her eyes, maybe she think that she annoys me " Okay Krystal, I'm not crying ,so don't ask me why i'm cry." She nodded like a obidient puppy. "Now let's talk.."

"Talk?"

"Talk about what?"

"Talk about something that we didn't understand."

Feelings.

"Let's talk about the weather." It might be the most boring conversation, but atleast it doesn't make my heart hurt.

As we talk about weather, i see the sky stop rainning but now is 3 pm. I have been waitting her for almost 6 hours. Great. But i think she will come soon, or i hope she'll come soonly. So i can finish what i started since 10 years ago today.