[TAENYFic] 10 Years to Realization (completed)

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I ruffled my hair, i always didn't like when the thought of we couldn't be together come to my mind. That's killing me, such a pain, and hurt me so bad but that's the reality. Me and Tiffany will never be together, this is not a fiction, this is the reality, and the reality wouldn't have a happy ending.

I really want to say those three words out of loud, 'I miss you fany-ah, I like you Miyoungie, I love you Tiffany Hwang!'

But say that to her will make our friendship end up right? And i don't want that happened.

Although i have said to you, 'You are the best that i ever had, I adore you so much, You are my comfort zone, i fond of you very much' but the three words never come out from my lips. It's frustating me! But once again i couldn't do anything right?

Right.

"The rain start pouring again.." That Krystal said softly beside me, i diverted my eyes to the street and yeah the rain start rainning again that's means Tiffany won't come here so soon. "Yup, I think Angel is sad so he cry and pouring his tears to the earth." I said flatly.

"That's crazy! Why would angel crying?" she ask me, and saw me with disbelief look.

"Well.. Maybe because Angel sad saw me, you, us, humans who have a cruel life." I shruggered, "Or maybe it's just the weather."

"I like your first answer but i think it's just the unstable weather. I don't understand the weather these day, suddenly hot as hell and suddenly rain pours really hard" She pouted, "Err.. Anyway can i now your n -" she couldn't finish her sentence because othe costumers call her, she immediately bow and ran to costumer. After she approached the costumers i look again the street, the rain pouring really hard. I just come back from New York to Seoul and i just see the rapid exchange of forecast in here, because New York's weather seem fine for me.

Speaking of understandment, if she doesn't understand the weather, the most thing i don't understand is the feeling and every emotion that exist. I know those feeling just made by our hormone, but why sometimes 'feeling' could take over the brain eventhough the brain that made a signal so the hormone will flow and take over our body right?I never understand the emotion things, it's complicated, really complicated and i don't like complicated things.

Same, my feelings for her is complicated too. I don't like it but that is the way i feel for her. Adoreness and the comfortable feel when around her collided with wanting her to be mine and needed her, so i think it's a love; a love that i have for a girl.

'But love between same gender is wrong' that is what she said. 'It's fully wrong, some thing wrong on her mind and her mental' that's what she said. 'Moreover that's a sin, a big sin!' that's what she said. 'We should follow his path, and shouldn't do his prohibition.' that is what she said.

And every words that she said make me more realize. She's stright, and i couldn't bend her down because her protection is God. And i can't make God as my enemy right?I can't againts God right?I can't fight a God right?

Or maybe i can but you can't. Because in here, i'm the sinner and you are the saint.