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FORTY-THREE

JIMIN DOESN'T KNOW how long he has been wandering around the city but at some point it started raining and he maybe even got lost.

It's already dark outside but it seems darker inside of Jimin. His heart and head hurt, every breath is painful.

He failed. He failed to save a young soul. She died because he couldn't protect and save her. A young person lost its life because Jimin failed to use his powers.

And the worst is that he knew his powers weren't working the way they should and still he decided to ignore it and go on the missions. He didn't tell anyone he tried to ignore it, to hide it. It's his fault this all happened. She didn't have to die.

The lump in his throat is huge, it's making it hard for Jimin to not burst out in tears. His chest feels heavy, everything hurts so much.

The pain is almost unbearable. He didn't even know the woman, but she didn't have to die. He failed his duty. Working for the Swat - it's no longer a duty he could fulfill. He failed and someone died, how could he continue the work? How after failing to save a person?

His mind is full of thoughts, about what happened, about what will happen and how things will go on from now. Jimin isn't sure.

Mostly he's angry with himself. He killed someone by ignoring an important part, by not telling someone about his power problem. It's his fault. He can't do this anymore.

After a while he left the crowded part of the city and went further away. It's an empty street through a small forest, leading to a small bridge.

Jimin decided to take a rest at the bridge, just looking at the small river underneath.

For the first time after the task, a shaky breath left his lips, one that he seemed to be holding ever since.

Tears starting to form in his eyes once again. It hurts. It hurts. Fuck, why does it hurt so much?

His whole body is soaking wet from the rain, but Jimin doesn't mind. He needs to feel the raindrops on his head because he doesn't know what to feel at all. Anger, sadness, worry, guilt, disappointment or nothing? Jimin isn't sure.

The grip around the fence he's been leaning against tightens, his eyes hurt even though the salty tears help to ease the burning feeling. Quiet sobs leave his lips as his whole body starts trembling, tears blur his vision while he tries to not break apart any second.

He needs someone to hold him together.

„Jimin?"

The younger stops his sobs, not sure if he was imagining things, if his mind is already messing with him.

A look to his left confirmed it - he is standing there, looking at him with pity written all over his face.

„Leave me alone." Jimin says, his voice more like a whisper but since the street is empty and the only sounds are coming from the river, the elder could hear him.