Prince and the outsider

Chapter 20

Magnus's POV

As soon as my eyes opened. I quickly got out of bed, got dressed and went down to eat with my family, tell them my plans of today and go on my way to the house where my mate is. I did call Freya to tell her I was on my way to their house.

I tried not to go for a sprint to their house. My wolf was nagging me to do that so he could be near our mate as quickly as he could. But I managed to control that. My excitement rose once I got to the house's front door. After knocking Marley opens the door and leads me in. As I was walking towards the living room I saw Freya, Freya's mate sitting in the kitchen. Marley went to the kitchen herself and I waited in the living room. Shortly after Freya told me to go to the backyard. My mate was waiting for me. Here I go. Don't mess anything up.

She had her back facing me, she was sitting on the deck's stairs, looking into the forest ahead. I sat down, fairly far away from her, so I wouldn't scare her or anything. Once I sat down she finally looked at me in the eyes. She had the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen before. I could get lost in them. A smile formed on my face. Surprisingly she smiled back. We sat in silence.

"You are a prince as I was informed, right?" I nodded for a yes.

"And you are the lycan born female?"

"Yes. And I hope you won't reject me for that."

"I will not."

"Neither will I."

After me saying that she signed deeply. It removed some stress off of her. I was happy to know that she will not be rejecting me and the fact that she felt better after I answered. But my past slightly coming back to me. I tried to push the momeries as best as I could. So to distract myself I started asking her questions and answering hers.

"I.. uh.. what's your favourite season?"

"Spring. Because in the east, the scenery would be the most beautiful."

"Mine would be autumn, the same as you because of the scenery."

"What is your favorite food?"She asked me.

"Its just steak with veggies, though I do enjoy a good burger as well."

"Mine is fries, chicken salad."funny how both included fast food and healthy food, but I guess I started saying it like that. Our talking continued for a while. She used to be a fighter. Interesting. But she also told me how she even gotten here. From her building being caught on fire to fetching the vampire and the witch. But then started to talk about her life. As far back as she could remember. She didn't have a good past. We surely had very different lives.

Through this conversation we began to sit closer to each other, without noticing. Unconsciously she rested her head on my shoulder. Only then I realized how close we were. I didn't mind. She seemed to not mind as well. I felt the sparks where her head was touching my shoulder. It was nothing intense. We stared into the woods ahead of us.

The entire time I could tell she tried to stay calm. I don't think I scare her, I think she is just afraid still of her situation or ours as well. My parents don't mind her, so she could in the future become a queen. I don't think she will join the council. Not that they would let her, I presume. I mean they are trying to find her parents, so the time will tell us of her future. But for now I just want us to bond. The council should not have influence in this matter.

"Can we go inside?" Serafina, my mate spoke and I nodded and both of us got inside. The Jones family was sitting in the living room, talking. Probably about us. About Freya's journey if they haven't talked about it yesterday already. We sat down. On the couch it was me, Serafina and Marley next to her. On the two armchairs sat Marley's parents. Another silence. I think there is a pattern today for it being almost always silence.

"Maybe you three want to watch a movie?"Freya suggested. The three of us agreed. Besides Marley's father had to go to work and well Freya had to stay in the house to not leave Serafina without her supervision. We watch a romcom movie. It made my mate smile and laugh through it. I never watched that movie before and I could say it was not bad.

After the movie we were called to eat lunch. While eating I noticed my mate wasn't really eating, just pushing the food side to side.

"Hey, is something wrong?"

"Everything is ok."

She when finally managed to eat her lunch. I believe she was just lost in thought. We stayed in the kitchen. Freya, me and Marley were talking while Serafina was just listening.

"When will you tell her she is your second chance mate?" Marley asked out of nowhere.

"I am?" My mate said looking at me.

I nodded and everything came down like a rollercoaster. And a specific memory that I reimagined several times after it happened. I started to notice panic rise in me. I think Marley realized what her words did to me. She tried to calm me down but it did nothing. My mate even put her hand on my arm, but even she couldn't help me sadly.

Why did the room became so hot and small all of a sudden? I felt like suffocating. So the only logical thing I could think of to do, I ran out. Into the backyard. Marley had to stop Serafina from following me and I was glad but also felt guilty. I didn't mention this to her yet. I would have told her. But now I realize I would not be able to say a word. It was now best if my best friend explained everything. I hope she will.

Now I remember almost panicking this way when I found out about the lycan being my second chance mate. After I got home I forgot about it. Felt happy about finding my mate, even once again. For some reason even if I hid and suppressed these memories, now are coming back to me. Everything that had happened with my first mate and the incident as well. What if something like this will happen to Serafina and I won't be able to be fast enough and save her, help her. The moon goddess thought that I deserve a second chance at love and I am afraid I might ruin it again. I don't want history repeating itself. Not like this. I won't be able to recover, I recovered from the past but experiencing it again would crash me down further more. The wounds healed up but are scarred and it is possible to open them up again.

Breath, breath. My wolf told me. I tried but it was hard. I don't know what was happening around me or where I was. Its like being physically in a place but mentally you are somewhere else and both worlds don't go together at some moments. I have no clue how to truly describe what I feel. I feel sadness, guilt, anger, more other similar emotions perhaps. I am a mess.