Behind Closed Doors ; Mattheo x Reader

Chapter 14

Merry Christmas to all <3

TW for this chapter. Skip past to *TW END* if you want, it's all good. Your mental health is more important than a story. Feel free to message me if you need to talk or vent. I'm here for you all and I love you all so much.

Also there's some spice in this chapter. No smut but a little bit of spice.

LeTs aDd A LiTTle BiT oF sPiCE ✨

Sorry for the extremely long wait guys but here it is x

I woke up the next morning with Theodore's arms around my waist. I managed to wriggle my way out without waking him and admired him, he was adorable when he slept.

I walked over to my bathroom and hopped in the shower. I said to myself silently, "Today is gonna be a good day, no, a great day in fact", in some attempt to hype myself up for the day. 

TW (Body Dysmorphia)

After I got out, I looked in the mirror at my naked body.  

I felt hideous. 

"Is that really what I look like", I thought to myself.

People call me beautiful but I don't feel it.

I don't see it.

I started pulling at my stomach. I hated it. 

Everything about it.

I feel so fat all the time. 

Why me?

TW END-

I put on a clean uniform and checked my reflection once again. I put on a little mascara and lip balm then left the bathroom. Theodore was up now so I sat on the bed next to him. "Morning love", he says. 

"Morning", I reply. "How'd you sleep?", I ask. "Pretty well thanks, how about you?", he replied, "Yeah, it was alright, but you should probably go and get ready for breakfast", "Oh, right, see you there", he said before leaving towards his dorm. 

*Later*

I didn't eat anything at breakfast and all my classes flew by like nothing and I was back in my dorm once again. I got out of my uniform and put on my hoodie and sweats to just relax in for a while. I grabbed one of my favourite books and made my way toward the astronomy tower. 

I sat up there quietly for a couple of hours, the time flew by once again and I was caught up in my book. I was so invested in its magical pages that I didn't even notice someone come up.

"Oh hey Y/n", they said, "I was looking for you". Slightly startled I looked up to see Enzo, and in a suit. I did a double take and looked him up and down. "Oh hey Enzo, you look great, what's up?". 

"You know its almost 9, the party starts soon", he said.  "Oh crap, I completely forgot about that", I replied, "I don't really wanna go though". "No, you are coming Y/n. You have to, its tradition", Enzo responded. 

I didn't really feel up to arguing so I decided to just go with it. "Fine, I'll go get ready". 

We walked back to my dorm and Enzo started rummaging through my dresses before pulling out this beautiful champagne gold, backless, glittery dress that I got a couple months back when I was out shopping with Pansy. (Picture at the bottom)

She must've put it in my trunk because I know I definitely did not. I've never worn it before and didn't plan on it but I guess tonight's the night. 

I gave Enzo a concerned look before dreadfully taking the dress from him and entering the bathroom to get dressed.