Behind Closed Doors ; Mattheo x Reader

Chapter 8

Hey lovelies, sorry its been awhile, I've been going through some stuff and forgot to write but here is the long awaited chapter 8, hope you all enjoy.

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(also lots of swearing in this chapter, sorry)

I made my way over to the closet that they were put in together, my heart was racing, I didn't really feel like seeing them together together, just the thought made me sick. People crowded around waiting for me to open the doors, my hands were shaking as I lifted them to the handles. On the count of three, i thought. 3.. 2.. 1.. I twisted the hands and opened the doors to reveal...

Nothing, there was no one in there and a flush of relief washed over me, I took a breath and turned to Enzo, "No one", I said. "Explain to me where they are then", he replied, "Oh my god, I'm going to bed", I said, pissed off with this boy, obviously. I walked off to my room, Enzo hot on my trail, I wasn't sure if he was saying anything cause I was just ignoring him. 

I reached my door and went to open it. It was locked. "What the fuck, why is my door locked?", I questioned stupidly, Enzo still behind me pulled out his wand seeing as mine was still in my room, "Alohomora", he said wand pointed at the door. I twisted the handle, honestly just wanting to go to sleep, and opened the door to see 2 people making out on my bed, well that explains why it was locked. "Ew what the fuck", I stated, them obviously not realising the door had been opened, they stopped, freaked and looked over at us.

My eyes widened and my jaw dropped, "What the actual fuck?", I said shocked. "Oh shit, oh my gosh, I am so sorry Y/n, I'm drunk and I didn't know, I wasn't paying atten-", she said as I cut her off, "No, get out", I breathed heavily, "What...", she said, "GET THE FUCK OUT PANSY!", I shouted, tears brimming my eyes, realisation setting in. "Y/n, I am so sorry", the boy started looking confused and lost, "NO, I FUCKING TRUSTED YOU RIDDLE!", I yelled, tears flowing like Niagara Falls. 

I couldn't even bare to look at him, I felt sick to my stomach, so I left the room, him following ofcourse. "Please Y/n, I didn't mean it", he started, "she kissed me and we're both drunk and I-", "Leave me alone Theo", I interrupted, still walking and crying. I made it back to the common room and kept walking to get away from him as he started talking again, "Please Y/n, I- I'm drunk", he stuttered, "I don't care, you were still making out with her, in my room, just fuck off", I yelled back behind me as I kept walking.

I made it over to the drinks table and picked up a drink not knowing what it was, I downed the whole thing in one go then kept walking. Theo starting again, "Please Y/n", "NO, LEAVE ME ALONE", I yelled as I saw Victor run in and start making his way over to me, "What in Merlin's beard is going on, Y/n, why are you crying?", he asked as we got closer to each other. I couldn't stand being followed around and I reached Victor and without thinking, I pressed my lips against his, hard.

We stood there for a minute kissing, Mattheo stopped in his tracks, then walked off. After he was no longer around, I pulled myself off of Victor, "What the actual hell did I miss?", he questioned as I looked down to the floor. "He- uh- he.. cheated on me... and then... wouldn't back off", I said as I felt my heart shatter, more tears leaving my already red eyes. "Oh shit... that's real fucked up, come here", he said and gestured for a hug, I walked into the hug still balling my eyes out. It was nice to have a shoulder to cry on.

We stood there for a few minutes in our embrace before he pulled back, "Come on, let's get you to bed", he smiles kindly, "Uhm, Vic, uh I don't really wanna go back to my bed tonight", I said softly, remembering what happened in there. "Oh, yeah ofcourse, you can sleep in my bed", he said, "Thanks", I said smiling up to him, "No problemo", he replied as we started walking off to his dorm. 

When we got there he made the bed and then comforted me for a while but ended up taking the other bed in the room. I laid there for what seemed like hours not being able to get to sleep, crying silently every once in a while. I absolutely hated this feeling and still felt sick to my stomach, I needed air. I carefully got up and left the room, unsure of where I was headed, I kind of just let my feet drag me wherever they felt like going. 

I ended up at a staircase and decided to go up wondering where it leaded because I was unsure of my whereabouts due to not really paying attention. I made it to the top after a few minutes and there I was, once again. The astronomy tower. I felt a relief of cold air hit my chest as I breathed in, taking heavy deep breathes to try and relax. I'm not really sure what the time was but it was late, that's for sure. 

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The stars were shining but there was only a small sliver of moon (or you could call it a crescent moon) tonight so I couldn't see the area very well but I made my way to the balcony and just stood there for a while, letting everything in. I looked down to the ground below, it was pretty far and I wasn't going to do it but the thought crossed my mind as I stared at the concrete below me. I mean it would end quickly, painlessly I guess.

That wouldn't be such a bad way to go and I felt kind of lost and unwanted and used now, so I was slightly debating it. I stared for a few minutes more, all my thoughts still overflowing my mind until I felt a knock, I wasn't sure what it was but it immediately reminded me of the time when Dumbledore tried to read my mind, so I put up a mental wall. 

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I looked around feeling as if someone was watching me, I didn't have my wand, I left it in my room, "Who's there?", I stated boldly, trying to show confidence. I could see a shadow moving around in the darkness, "I know you're there, who are you?", I stated again, a little less confidently. 

I saw the shadow move once again back over towards the door, and I thought it was gonna leave and let me be in peace but it just stood there, blocking the exit. I stared at the shadowed figure trying to show my non-existent confidence still and waited, but it still didn't move. Whoever it was kind of just stared at me, I could feel their eyes burning through my skin. "What do you want?", I said. He moved slightly, leaning against the frame, and finally spoke, "You...".

Hey everyone, thankyou so much for reading my story, so far lol, its almost at 500 reads and I couldn't be more grateful, I don't know when the next update will be because I'm still going through shit and I kinda wrote todays chapter out of boredom, but thanks for waiting, and I'll try to make it soon. 

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