dnf oneshots

relapsing

TW:self harm

georges pov

ive been clean for five months now.

my scars have faded to white and that bugs me.before i started dating dream,i never had a healed scar,they were always a shade of red.it really,really bothered me that they weren't red.

i was on twitter ten minutes ago,now im sitting on the bathroom floor after having a melt down.people have really mean shit to say about me.i don't even know why i read them in the first place,but when i started reading the,i couldn't stop reading them and they really got in my head.

my hands are shaking and its still very hard to breathe.i don't know what to do.maybe i deserve all this,maybe people hate on me and comment rude things about me for a reason.maybe i wasn't destined to be in this world,maybe i was an accident.

i let out a shaky breathe as i stood up,walking over to the cabinet.i opened it and moved aside all the medicine and other bottles to reveal my hidden blade.i've been hiding it from Dream,i don't want him to know that i still keep it.

its not like i've used it for 5 months,but i knew i would need it sooner or later,so here i am.i picke up the blade and sniffled as i went back onto the floor.i rolled up my sleeve and slowly swiped it acroos my faded scar.in a few seconds blood came out,but not enough.it stung,but not enough.

i swipe the blade harder on the same scar,making me hiss.i continued making new scars over my old ones,making sure that every single cut hurts more than i want them to,making sure the scars wont be white for a long time.

i looked at my arm.there were about 10 scars that were bleeding and stinging,but it just wasn't enough.i applied more pressure on the blade and covered my whole lower arm in scars.the blood was dripping on the floor and my arms were stained.

it's still not enough.

tears started to fall from my eyes once again as i lifted up the sleeves on my right arm,where there weren't any scars at all.i quickly swiped the blade all across my lower arm,the cut being way deeper than i wanted them to be.

im not sure if i was crying because i just ruined months of progress,or because of how much it hurt.

the floor was full of blood and my arms were covered in fresh scars.i stood up and almost fell over,putting my hands against the wall to stop me from falling.i cleaned up my wounds which took a really,really long time.i put bandages on my wounds which wouldn't stop bleeding,i rolled down my sleeves,calmed myself down and went downstairs to where Dream was.

Dream smiled when he saw me "hey,what were you doing for so long?"  he said,walking over to give me a kiss.

"oh i just took a shower"i said and accepted his kiss.

he hummed into the kiss as a responce and pulled away before searching up something on his phone.he turned the phone around to show me a recipee of cookies

"can we make them?pleaseee"dream had a huge smile on his face.

suddenly,i forgot about all of my problems.i chuckled and nodded my head,making Dream jump around in excitement.

we got all of the ingridients and placed them on the counter.Dream turned on the oven about 10 minutes ago to pre-heat it,and it was getting quite warm.

i opened the flower and poured some in the bowl,adding 2 eggs and milk to it.dream added sugar and started mixing them.i oiled the pan we were gonna use and put it on the table.after we were done with the mix,dream put it in the pan and spread it evenly.i grabbed the pan and put it inside the oven.

"Okay it says that we have to wait 50 minutes and they'll be done" Dream said,reading the information from his phone.

*timeskip,the cookies are done.they're eating in the kitchen*

the cookies were on the counter.me and dream both had one.

"oh my god its hot in here"Dream said and rolled up his sleeves.

"it really is"i said and rolled up my sleeves too,forgetting i had bandages on my arms.

i took a cookie and finished it,drinking water after.

"hey,whats that?" Dream asked and i gave him a confused look.he pointed to my arms.i looked down at my arms and realized,i fucked up.

"its,um" i tried to make up a lie,but i coudln't talk properly and i felt tears forming in my eyes.

i took a deep breathe and opened my mouth to speak,but nothing came out.Dream noticed that i was starting to panic and walked over to me,pulling me into a hug

"its okay,you're okay."Dream continued whispering sweet nothings in my ear untill i calmed down.

after i was calm again, dream removed my bandages and exposed my scars which still haven't stopped bleeding and they looked a bit infected.

"ill be right back,stay here m'kay?"dream kissed my forehead and ran upstairs.he quickly came back with a med it.

he put the kit on the counter and opened it.he pulled out a bottle which helped with infections,at least that's what dream said.

"can you take off your shirt?it might get dirty" dream said and i took off my hoodie,giving it to him.i placed my left hand on the counter.dream held my left hand as he poured the liquid all over my arm.i hissed at the burning sensation and gripped his hand.

"sorry" dream said and took out wet wipes,wiping the blood and liquid off my left arm.he did the same thing with my right arm and applied some sort of cream to help it heal.he bandaged my scars up and gave me his hoodie,as mine was dirty with blood stains.

i smiled and mumbled a thank you to him.dream smiled back and pulled me into a soft,passionate kiss.

"do you wanna talk about it?" Dream asked.i knew i had to talk about it at some point,but i wasnt comfortable right now.

"no"i looked down,staring at the floor. 

"that's fine,let's go upstairs its getting late" dream said and i nodded,following him up the stairs.

we freshened up in the bathroom and i went into the bedroom first,getting in the bed.dream followed a few seconds later,turning off the lights and getting into the bed.he turned on the lamp,knowing im scared of being in the dark.

i was on the left side,dream was on the right.i rested my head on his shoulder and put both my arms on his chest.Dreams right hand was wrapped around my shoulder and his left hand was resting on the bed.one of my legs were over one of his.i soon heard dreams soft snores and i smiled at how cute and peaceful he looked while he slept.

i closed my eyes and soon fell asleep,forgetting about everything else and only remembering Dream.