Don't be afraid just let me help. Jay McGuiness (The Wanted) Fan Fiction

Chapter 9

“Urgh” I sat up in bed my head pounding. Questions buzzed around my head causing it to hurt even more. Like one of them being why the hell was I in bed? I closed my eyes laying my head back down onto the pillow letting my body relax. “Morning.” Jay’s husky voice came from next to me. I groaned as I sat up again. My body ached. “How you feeling?” Jay’s voice croaked. “Shit.” I groaned stretching my arms out almost hitting him in the face as he sat up. He let out a chuckle before standing up and pulling on a probably dirty pair of tracksuit bottoms. “Painkiller” He asked as he made his way out the room. I nodded slowly as the pain spun around my head. I was still in the clothes I had worn out last night. I felt dirty. I know that sounds pretty weird considering I lived on the streets and didn’t wash but I felt myself slowly becoming normal…Or well as close to normal as I would get.

“Go for a shower you will feel better.” Jay nodded at me. I sighed really not wanting to move. I still hadn’t changed my clothes. “Does everyone feel lie this after a night out or only me?” I asked for Jay to let out a massive laugh. “You ask the most stupid questions, but yeah mostly everyone if they have had a lot to drink.” He smiled at me as he flicked through the TV channels in hope of finding something he would like to watch. He kept smiling at me. Not just like a friendly smile and proper smile. A loving smile. I pretended not to notice and tried to put my attention onto the TV.

I walked into the living room expecting Jay to be out. I had my towel from my shower wrapped tightly around my body. I heard someone cough from behind me as I reached over to get my clothes from the radiator. It was kind of sad but I liked putting warm clothes on the feeling or just heating up. Yeah it was weird but it was a kind of comfort.  I turned to see Jay staring back it me his cheeks flushed a pink colour as he saw me wrapped in my towel. “Urm I was, Urm, I was just eh out.” He stuttered still staring at me. “It doesn’t matter I was just getting my clothes. I wanted them to be nice and cosy.” I grinned back at him holding my clothes in one hand and making sure my towel didn’t fall off with the other. I made my way to the bedroom to get changed watching Jay’s eyes follow me as I left the room.

I wondered what was going on with him. Why was he acting so strangely? Or was this normal? I mean the only people I had been around the last few years were the people who glared at me on the streets, the people who looked like I was some sort of vermin and my ‘customers’ I had never been around genuine nice people. Maybe he was just happy I had finally started to settle down? Or maybe it was love?

I lay in bed trying to get comfortable and to my surprise it didn’t take long. Jay was fast asleep next to me. Thoughts that I had put into my mind earlier that day buzzed around in my head. Did he love me? Was I being silly? I mean who falls in love with someone that fast? Who falls in love with me! No one. No one gives me a chance, but then again Jay did. Jay gave me everything he brought happiness back into my life. In fact he brought life back into my life. Was I jumping to conclusions? Was he just being friendly? But then again do friends randomly stare at their friends smiling. Why was life never simple for me? Or why couldn’t I read minds? I mean how easy would life be if you knew exactly how people felt? I mean you would know who hated you, who loved you and who really did care about you and didn’t just want you for some specific reason.

The more I lay there the more I began to think about everything. Did I like Jay only because he helped me or did I genuinely like him. If he liked me or loved me would I ever be able to like him back? If I didn’t would he hate me? Would I become homeless again? Would I fall back into my old habits…Maybe I was better off being homeless. 

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Also a massive sorry for such short parts I will try make them longer I am currently moving house, college troubles plus in and out the mental health clinic so a lot going on! I will try make the parts more exciting etc but if you have any ideas of what you want the future to hold for Beth and Jay drop the idea in the comment section below!

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