Don't be afraid just let me help. Jay McGuiness (The Wanted) Fan Fiction

Chapter 10

I got up and walked down stairs head pounding. Jay really liked to party! I walked into the living room to find Jay asleep on the couch. A cover wrapped around his body clothes he had on the night before lay on the floor of the living room. I shook my head smiling. I smiled to hide the pain. I tried to act like “typical Jay” but it wasn’t. He had avoided me a lot the last few days, weeks even. He slept most nights down stairs away from me, spent most of his time out of the house away from me. When he was home he was quiet. Very quiet. I missed the comfortable feeling we had around each other. When we could sit in silence and still feel comfortable. Now we were filled with awkwardness and little to say. Maybe we had spent too much time together but then again he would just say that to me instead of avoiding me completely. I felt alone. I felt like a burden in my own home… But then again it wasn’t my home. It was Jay’s.

Jay had left again. Like he always did and I had had enough of it. I grabbed a bag from the cupboard piling clothes and essentials into it. I pulled on a warm jacket and one of Jay’s beanie’s before slinging the bag around my back and walking out. I locked the door posting the keys through the letter box knowing I probably wouldn’t need them ever again. I was done with staying in that house. I was done with Jay. He helped me a lot but he pushed me back to the person I thought I had got rid off. I walked back into Town. Finding a small alley way. I walked in slumping down against the building. It had been snowing and my hands felt lie ice. I tried breathing in them to heat them up a bit but it was no use.

It turned dark and the snow slowly fell from the sky. I don’t know why but I loved the snow. Yeah it was cold and being homeless at that point in time wasn’t great but snow made me smile. It reminded me of being a child. Just waking up and hoping for snow so schools were off. Spending endless amounts of smile building snow men and lying down making a snow angel. I sat there watching the snow gently fall from the sky. It looked so peaceful. I decided walking around may keep me from freezing so I decided to walk. Most nights it was busy out on the streets as the clubs emptied their doors but that night was different. It was almost silent. It was a strange feeling. Not the feeling it used to have. I found myself feeling nervous as I walked the streets. I was very aware of my surroundings. It was too quiet and I didn’t like it. I didn’t feel safe.

I walked along the street I used to ‘work’ seeing the people from the clubs stumble across the road into taxi’s. I laughed remember me and Jay doing it a few nights before. We clung to each other for support even though both of us weren’t too good on our feet. We had danced the whole night drinking a little too many shots than what we should have but it was fun. I sighed going to turn away feeling sad and already missing Jay. I knew he probably wasn’t missing me, he probably didn’t even know I was gone. I carried on walking before bumping into someone. I mumbled a sorry before carrying on walking only to be pulled back by my wrist. “Long time no see.” He groaned in my ear pulling me close to him. I looked up to see a tall man, with dark skin and black hair shaved at the side’s and spiked up in the middle. “Do I know you?” I asked in confusion. “Come on you remember me? You said I was your best customer.” He winked pulling me closer to his body. I wriggled around under his touch trying to release his grip that he had around my waist. “I’m sorry but I honestly do not know who you are and I also don’t know what you’re talking about.” I lied, I knew who he was. He was a sleaze. He was in his late 30’s but honestly he looked around late 20’s. He didn’t look like a man. He held onto his youth. He was married. He told me. He used to pay well and I liked keeping him happy knowing I’d get a tip.

“So how much this time?” He asked me his eyes brightening up as he eyed me up and down noticing I wasn’t in my usual clothes. It had been a long time since he had seen me. I looked nothing like the old me. I looked clean for a change, I was surprised he even knew who I was or even remembered me. “Nothing.” I smiled sweetly at him. “Really?” His eyes widened even more and a sly smile appeared on his face. “Yeah because it’s not happening. I’m not that person any more.” I smiled feeling proud of myself. Yes I was homeless again; weirdly my own choice and I knew I couldn’t fall back into my old habits. I wanted to be a changed person. I knew Jay didn’t care but I wanted to make him proud. Make myself proud. I walked away from the man leaving him standing there in the cold.

I started to shiver as the snow still came down from the sky. I started to miss the warm feeling of being with Jay. Having his arms wrapped around me, feeling the warmth from his body. I sighed taking a seat at a bus stop. I wanted to go back to Jay’s. I wanted to go home. I never thought I’d be normal but I guess Jay had helped me get back to being my old self. I sighed getting up.

I found myself walking in circle’s going around and around on the same streets. I just walked and thought about everything. I knew Jay didn’t care so I didn’t go back. No matter how much I wanted to I stopped myself. I missed having a roof over my head, being warm, being comfortable but what was the point in being in a house where you weren’t wanted. I wasn’t far from the house. Only a few streets away. I couldn’t bring myself to leave the area. I usually went everywhere but something was keeping me holding on. Holding on to being close to Jay.

“Beth?” I heard his voice. I turned to see him jogging towards me. “Where the hell have you been?!” He shouted anger present in his voice. I saw the anger in his eyes. “Walking.” I replied simply. I wasn’t lying it’s what I had been doing. “Why aren’t you home? It’s freezing out here! And it’s” He paused taking his phone from his pocket and looking at it. “4:25Am.” He finished off. “I didn’t feel welcome there any more. Don’t lie to me Jay. I know you don’t want me there. You have avoided me the past few weeks; you sleep on the couch instead of in bed. All you had to say was I was in the way.” I sighed taking a breath and going to walk away from him. He grabbed my hand before I could go any where. He tucked a finger under my chin and made me look up at him. Right into his bright blue eyes. “We need to talk. Come back to the house?” He said looking sheepish. I nodded following him.

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