Don't be afraid just let me help. Jay McGuiness (The Wanted) Fan Fiction

Chapter 14 - Final chapter.

I found myself sat in an alleyway not far from Jay’s house. Well it was really my house too but I still referred to it as Jay’s. I don’t know why I didn’t say it back to him. I mean he told me he loved me again and I left him hanging. It had been a few days since Jay had found out that I knew Tom and it strangely brought us closer. That is well until I couldn’t get the words “I love you” to leave my mouth. You know when someone says something to you and you really should reply but you can’t get the words out your mouth? Well yeah that happened to me. I was one of those people who were scared to love. Mostly down to the fact everyone I had ever loved had left, died or hurt me. Scared of doing something wrong. My whole life I ran from my problems so I did what I always knew… I ran. I didn’t run far, I secretly hoped Jay would come find me. I knew he would. He always did.

Jay hadn’t came and found me so I decided to just go to a club. If the Jay taught me one thing it was how to have a good time and I was in need of one. The security had got to know me as “Jay’s girl” so I got into the club pretty quick and straight into the VIP section without having to pay a thing. I walked in to see Nathan, Max and Tom sat there. Great. Nathan saw me straight away and came running over. “Jay’s been looking for you!” He announces to me and pretty much everyone stood around us as he said it so loudly. Cleary had been drinking already. “Oh well obviously he didn’t do a good job.” I smiled at him. “Can you text him for me tell him I’m here?” I asked Nathan nodded as I made my way over to the table. It was about time I faced my demon that was Tom. He looked at the table as I sat down clearly not wanting to make eye contact Parker. “You know you can look at me it’s not like I’m going to burst into tears. I’m over it.” I smiled weakly at him. I don’t know what had come over me but suddenly I wasn’t afraid or ashamed of what my past was. As I sat in the alleyway earlier in the day I thought about everything. About how what I done made me a stronger person not weak. It didn’t make me a “slut” it didn’t make me filthy it made me who I am. It gave me strength. It gave me the strength to change my life. Jay helped me along the way but if I wasn’t that person, if I didn’t go through that rough point in my life I wouldn’t be the strong person I was now. I had survived a lot and I wasn’t going to give up because of Tom. “I’m sorry.” He barely whispered at me. Clearly Jay had got angry at him that he was acting so sheepish. “Well if you’re so sorry fancy buying me a drink?” I smiled at him he grinned back at me getting up and making his way over to the bar.

I watched as Jay came over to the table. The confidence I had seemed to adopted over the night was suddenly slipping away. A smile grew on his face as he saw me. He pulled me up from where I was sat and pulled me into another booth away from the boys and away from the mass of people dancing. It was pretty busy for the VIP section which was unusual. I looked up at him to see his expression had changed. “Why did you run away again?” He said acting as if I was some small child who had ran away from their parents on a busy street. “I didn’t, I just needed some space to think.” I smiled up at him hoping he’d understand he just nodded at me. “I love you too. I should have said it back earlier but I was scared, scared of loving you. I’ve been putting it off for a long time now but I’m tired of being afraid, tired of being ashamed of who I am. I’ve realised I love you and it’s time I grew some balls and got on with my life and take each day as it happens and if I get hurt I get hurt.” I said. I took a deep breathe as I finished speaking. I felt so relieved that I finally got it all out. I had kept everything bottled up for so long. I felt Jay’s strong arms wrap around my body pulling me close. “I’m so glad to hear you say those words.” He smiled at me as his lips met mine. I had finally done it. I let my guard down for the first time in a few years. I finally allowed myself to be happy. I allowed myself to care for someone. 

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