Don't be afraid just let me help. Jay McGuiness (The Wanted) Fan Fiction

Chapter 13

I looked over at Jay and Tom, they were talking. It had been a few days since I met the boys and things had been going well. Me and Tom had learned to be civil to each other. I had stopped completely ignoring him and he had nearly stopped with the rude comments. I was pretty proud of myself. I mean I had hid the fact that I despised him pretty well. No one had seemed to have mentioned our awkwardness around each other. When we were stood near each other you could cut the tension with a knife. I watched as Tom and Jay finished off their conversation. I had spent most of the last few days in the studio with them. Jay thought it would do me good getting out the house and spending time with everyone and getting to know them. I got on with all the boys part from Tom. I loved being in the studio in a way. It was something I never thought I’d experience. I loved sitting and watching everyone working, learning how things worked and just sitting back and watching Jay living his dream. We always spoke about how he loved performing. I never thought that he would actually be doing that for living.

I sat on a seat just spinning myself around It had got to that time of the day where the boys were busy or away Max was away to get lunch for us all, Jay, Siva and Nathan were engrossed in a song that they had just recorded and Tom, he was in the booth. “I just want you for the weekend.” He began to sing. I let my mind wonder ignoring his voice as I spam myself. As much as I hated him I had to admit his voice was good. My spinning came to a sudden halt as I felt someone grab the back of the chair. I turned around laughing expecting to see Jay but I was wrong. My gaze was met by a pair of brown eyes with a small sparkle in them. They had nothing on Jay’s pure blue eyes. Whoever said you can tell a lot about a person by there eyes was right. When I looked into Jay’s eyes I saw honesty. I could tell I could trust him. When I looked into Tom’s eyes I saw mystery and a hint of evil “You know that song I was just recording?” He asked me I nodded remembering some of the lyrics that I tried to block out. “It was about our times together” He said winking at me letting out a cackle that he liked to consider as a laugh I felt my skin start to crawl at his words The tears built up behind my eyes but I told myself I wouldn’t cry in front of him. I made my way over to Jay tapping him on the shoulder slightly afraid of disturbing him He turned and looked down at me instantly picking up that something was wrong. He looked over at Tom only for him to shrug his shoulders in reply to him. He looked over at Tom only for him to shrug his shoulders to reply to him. He looked down at me again his eyes filled with sadness as I let a tear roll down my cheek. He ran his finger along it gently wiping it away before pulling me into a hug, holding me close to him. I rested my head against his chest. Listening to his heartbeat calmed me slightly. “Can we go home?” I managed to almost whisper to him. He nodded wrapping his arm around me and leading the way. Calling out his goodbyes to the boys and the crew

I got home and headed straight for the shower. I stepped in letting the hot water burnt my skin. I didn’t care though I wanted all the dirt off me. I wanted all the dirt and filth from my past to be gone I promised myself I wouldn’t let it get to me but seeing Tom was a reminder of who I used to be and what I used to do. “Beth are you sure you’re okay?” Jay called into the bathroom. I nodded in reply forgetting he couldn’t see me. “Yeah.” I managed to choke out before the tears started to fall. Not that it mattered as I was in the shower. In my mind the water that was going down the drain was brown. Brown from the dirt falling off my body, although I was clean I felt my energy wash down the drain along with my past. I let my body slide down the shower wall. I sat there the water hitting me. In silence.

I stepped out of the bathroom with just one of Jay’s shirts on. “Beth? What took you so long? You were in the shower for over 2hours!” Jay said looking at me from the couch as I walked into the living room. I shrugged my shoulders taking a seat next to him. I pulled my knees up to my chest pulling the T-shirt I was wearing over so my body was covered. “Beth? Something has happened hasn’t it? Did Tom say something to upset you?” Jay asked. I could see just by looking at him that he was concerned. I nodded afraid to speak as I couldn’t find the words in my head to explain what had happened before I had met him. “Please tell me what he said?” He asked running his hand over my bare arm trying to sooth me. His voice was low “He reminded me of who I used to be.” I managed to say not looking at him. I found a spot on the floor to put my concentration on. I let my eyes follow the pattern on the rug scared to look up at him. “What do you mean? How would he know anything about that?” He asked, I could tell just by his tone he was confused. “Before I met you before you saved me Tom was one of my regulars.” I said nerves causing me not to say anymore. Jay’s arms fell around me pulling me closer into his chest. He sensed I didn’t want to talk about it so he did all he possibly could to make me feel a little more comfortable. “I didn’t think he was like that.” He managed to reply to me. I looked up at him to see him looking hurt. It killed me seeing him that way. “He only done it because he knew I was homeless. If he saw me on the street he’d take me for food or buy me a jacket but if I was working he’d use it to his full advantage. I just wanted to forget that part of my life but he’s constantly saying rude comments or even just looking at him reminds me of what I did. I feel ashamed whenever I see his face.” I managed to tell him everything. I felt his gaze leave me. “Are you upset with me?” I asked looking up at him not wanting to cry “Course I’m not. Why would you ever think that?” He asked as he ran his thumb across my cheek giving me a small smile. “Because I hid the fact I knew Tom from you.” I said. I felt bad for basically lying to him. He shook his head smiling “You don’t need to tell me everything. Plus I did hide I was in a band from you.” He chuckled as he pulled me closer to his body so I could rest my head on his chest again. 

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