Losing Grip | Sabigiyuu

Talking and sobbing

🐉 Question of the day: What's your favourite Pokémon? 🐉

it's useless , no matter what I try , I will be never be better than Sabito.
It will be always him.
And I will be always the second place.

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Sabito carefully brushed his hand up and down on my back to calm me.
It helped a bit , I feel so embarrassed, why did I cry in front of him , he must think I'm weak now, I mean he probably already thinks that..
"There there.."
After some time my tears stopped.
"Do you want to tell me what made you tear up so badly? "Sabito carefully asked , again these questions..

Let him help you
What

Just this one time
Okay

" I don't know.. in the past few weeks I tried my best , really! I tried to improve, I wanted to get better , Stronger and faster. But it was useless , I still suck in training.
I wanted to show you that I'm also manly alike and that I'm not weak-" Some tears ran down my cheek again , wow it can't get any more embarrassing. Sabito's eyes widened, he hugged me again , "oh Giyuu.. you idiot.. why would you think that I think that you're weak ?? " He whispered while he hugged me tightly.
"I don't know", I sobbed more ,
"I never ever thought that your not strong ! Just because I often was worried if you got hurt , that doesn't mean I think your weak.." He continued , I stayed silent.
I didn't know what to say , how could I? I just broke down in front of him and told him why and what I was doing in the past week's, I felt horrible but at the same time so calm in his touch , it's scaring me. His touch.

"We can always train together,I can even show you tricks ,but please don't overwork or prove yourself to me ever again", wait , was his voice cracking? That's the first time in years I heard him being close to tears.
"I'll try" I just said and rested my head on his shoulder.

Don't block your feelings
What do you mean , I'm not even doing anything right now , go away

Your feelings towards Sabito while hugging are-
Shut up.

I need to stop these thoughts, they make me question everything.
I'm not blocking my feelings , I just like hugs , it's my way to show my "love language" , if that's what you want to call it , I like showing it with physical touch.
There's no other feeling behind it and it's not my fault if my own mind doesn't understand that.
After some time we pulled out of the long lasting hug.
It felt so so good to be hugged again..
"Do you feel better?.." He asked , actually yes , I felt better ,it felt good to finally have someone to listen to you.
Okay it was embarrassing that the person that you had the mental breakdown about was also the person who listened to you.
"I'm feeling better , yeah"
Sabito smiled at me softly, oh there's the kind smile I love to see so much.

It warms my heart so much. These are the moments were he actually forgets about his manly pride and shows affection to me.
I wish there were more moments like that.
Maybe it's just time for a big change.
Yeah , I have to take this as a new chance.
"Say , would a sleepover be okay today?"I asked , he agreed.
I need to start being more social again and I need to accept Sabito's help.

We both decided to spend the rest of the hangout laying in the grass and relax. I definitely needed that.

Flashbacks POV 3rd person
Sabito- 8
Giyuu- 8

"Awww look at these baby ducks!", Giyuu said as they got to they're favourite lake.
They had some bread from master Urokodaki to feed them.
You may wonder why this is they're favourite place?
That's simple ,
Sabito and Giyuu had so many moments here , happy , sad , relaxing and more moments.
every moment is unique and connects them to the lake.
Makomo also knew the lake, but unfortunately she is afraid of ducks because she once got bitten by a duck but not hardly, so she avoids the lake.

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Around 4pm they went back to the house.
Its funny how they could spend hours of just laying in the grass , saying nothing but watching the sky and the ducks.

Next day

Sabito and Giyuu finally trained together, its been such a long time since they trained together.
In fact, sabito noticed that Giyuu was getting better, although Giyuu said that his individual training didn't help ,it did help!
"Wow you really improved holy-"
Sabito said as Giyuu won the fight , Giyuu smiled brightly.
He was happy, he enjoyed the comment especially when the praise came from Sabito.
Urokodaki watched over the two closely to see if they were really training harder because they didn't train yesterday.

Everything was going to perfect now right? Sabito knew about Giyuu's Problem what could even go wrong now? They are going to do this together now.

What bad could happen?