I Need You (Inumaki Toge X Reader)

Chapter 21

Previously on Chapter 20

No matter how hard I try to escape... no matter how hard I try to fight the reality. I can't ever change the fact that I'm nothing but a monster. His mother was right. Toge deserves better... he deserves to be with someone better. Someone who is not me.

I'm so sorry, Toge

-Heartache-

Toge P.O.V

I wake up the next morning. I get up from my bed and start getting ready for the day. I want to finish this routine as fast as possible, so I can see my girl's beautiful face.

Once I made sure everything looks good. I head out of my room, making my way towards Y/N's room. I lift my hand and knocks on her door. I wait silently, waiting for Y/N to open the door. But I didn't hear any sound from inside.

"Y/N?" I called out. But only greeted by silence. I feel my heart beating faster in anxiety. I slowly open the door to see it's empty. I enter Y/N's room and look around. No sign of my girlfriend.

"Y/N!!" I yelled out. I turn my head to the table to see a piece of letter. I bit my lips as I make my way towards it. I pick the letter and start to read.

Dear,
Toge

Hello, my love. I'm so sorry for this. I've just been thinking lately. As much as it hurts me to make this choice. It had to be done.

All you've ever gained by being with me is pain. You nearly died because of me. There's no guarantee that it won't happen again in the future and I'm not staying to watch it happen. So I'm so sorry... but I'm going to have to say goodbye.

You deserve someone better, Toge. I'm a curse. I'm a monster. I don't deserve you. You're way out of my league. But I love you so much, Toge... and it pains me to say goodbye. But it is what it is.

Please don't look for me. Try to move on and find a girl who's better than me. You're an amazing guy, Toge. So I'm sure you'll find someone. I'm so sorry. Thank you for everything...

Love,
Y/N

I shake my head, trying to deny the fact that this is actually happening. I fall on my knees and let out a scream. I clutch my hair tightly as tears starts to fall from my eyes.

"Inumaki-senpai? What happened??" Someone said. I turn my head to see Itadori. I just hand the letter to him. He take it from me and starts to read. His eyes widened in shock.

"No way..." he said. The others gathers around the room as well. Itadori turns to look at them as I look down. "She left..." he said. I can hear gasps coming from everyone.

I clench my hands. No... I refuse to let this be like this. I have to find her. Even if she said she didn't want to be found. But I don't care! I need her. She's all that I need and ever wanted. I'm not letting her go easily.

I stand up and rush out of Y/N's room. I ignore the others who's yelling at me to stop. Y/N... you're not leaving me. I'm going to find you no matter what. I need you, Y/N. How could you even do this?

I slowly come to a stop. 'What did happen? Y/N's okay last night. Until...' I thought to myself. My eyes widened when I realize something. I click my tongue and turn towards a direction. I break into a sprint. I sure hope this isn't like what I had thought. Please don't let it be the reason.

***

I knock on the door. I waited patiently as the door opens. "Toge... you're here again, honey?" She said. She walks towards me to give me a hug. But I step back and give her a look.

"What did you say to her?" I asked. She furrows her eyebrow at what I said. "Y/N... what did you say to Y/N?? She left me... she was fine yesterday" I said. Her eyes widened at what I said.

"What makes you think this is my fault, honey?" She said. I scoff at what she said. "She was fine until we came to visit you. After we head back she started acting weird! So what did you say to her, mom??" I said.

"I just think it's for the best, Toge. There's no clear background about her. We don't know who she is... and we don't know if she came from a good family. I just want what's best for you..." she said. I shake my head in disbelief at what she said.

"I can't believe you'd make the girl I love leave me. She's the only one who understands me. The only one I can talk to, because of my cursed speech! You think you're helping me... but you're BREAKING me!" I said. At this point, I don't care if my cursed speech going to hurt me. Physical pain is nothing compare to what I feel in my heart.

"I need her in my life, mother. So why'd you chase her away?! You don't know who she is but I do! She's Y/N. She's the girl I love with all of my heart. But because of you, I lost her!!" I yelled at her. My body starts to shake as my tears starts to stream down my cheeks.

"Toge, I'm so sorry... I didn't know she meant that much to you" she said. She reach out to hold me. I shake my head as I back away from her. "Just stay out of my life... you ruined it. I was so happy with Y/N because she's the only one I can talk to without worrying that I might accidentally curse her! She's everything I need, mother" I said. She covers her mouth as she starts to cry.

I feel my throat starting to burn. I crouch down as blood starts to come out of my mouth. Mother try to come to me. She place a hand on my shoulder, but I swat her hand away.

"Don't touch me!" I said. She looks upset by my action. But I couldn't care less. "Until I find Y/N again, until I can have her in my arms again. You can forget you ever have a son..." I said. I turn around and runs away, ignoring her yells and pleads for me to stop. 

I come to a stop not far from the town by the lake. I open my mouth and let out a scream. I fall on my knees as I start to cry harder. I slam my hands into the ground as I keep on screaming.

"Y/N!! Why'd you leave me?! You promised you'd always be there for me! Why, Y/N? WHY?!!" I yelled out. I collapse on the ground as I keep on crying out loud. My throat hurts from my curse speech... but above all, my heart is breaking.

*to be continued*