When it Rains, it Hurts

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TW: Mention of Rape/Abuse

The sexual activities of someone do not express invitation to such crime. Thus, having sexual activities after surviving doesn't make you the wrong one. This chapter includes sex scenes that may be disturbing to some people, considering the past events in the previous chapters. However, this chapter is made to prove a point. Doing these activities after a painful incident doesn't mean that you are invalidating your own feelings and disregarding your traumas. You are not alone, you are loved and you are respected.

Also, hypersexuality exists. It can either be a coping mechanism or a trauma response. Let's not forget about its existence! We shall stop using it against victims.

I am dedicating this and the next chapter to those strong people out there, the survivors, and to those who experienced/are experiencing emotional invalidation and to those whose rights were forgotten due to judgements and toxic mindset of the people around them, their society. I stand with you, we stand with you. #StopVictimBlaming

R-18

He looked like he wants to have fun with me. Hawak-hawak niya ang kamay ko hanggang sa makapasok kami sa k'warto. I turned the lights off... I don't want him to remember my face.

I made the first move as alcohol dominated my body. I kissed Ace in an aggressive manner. He stopped me to remove his eye mask. I heard it being dropped on the floor as Ace held my jaw to kiss me better. I encircled my arms around his neck when I felt him pushing me by the waist. He was guiding me to the bed. He was heavy but I was liking the heat his body's giving me. And because he was just wearing a pair of boxers like the other guys, I felt his damn erection.

We stopped when the lights went on. I had the chance to see Ace's face. My lips parted in shock when I saw Edward's face. Am I dreaming or am I drunk?

"Oh my, sorry! Hindi ko alam!" Lilibeth shouted and stormed off after closing the door.

"Edward?" He looked so nervous when I uttered his name. What is he doing here?! We just made out! Gosh, anong nangyayari?!

I already had a hunch earlier... And I still offered him this thing. Because I felt safe and comfortable with him. All my worries and my fears didn't haunt me for a moment because of him.

"Sage, I'm sorry-"

"Fuck it, save that for later! I don't fucking care, give me the "fun" first." His eyes showed innocence and worry when I said that. "I'm not joking... I wanna do it with you... Kahit ngayong gabi lang."

"We're friends-"

"Then why did you kiss me? Friends don't kiss! Ikaw pa nga ang paulit-ulit na nagre-remind sa akin. Stop that bullshit and just please... Please give it to me."

"Let's turn the lights off, so we won't remember this..." He went off the bed to turn off the lights. When he got back, he whispered on my ear. "Just call me Ace."

Agad na nag-init ang katawan ko nang halikan niya ako. His hands started to wander on my body. I felt my left boob being massaged. Nahiya tuloy ako... Wala naman 'yun masyadong laman. Mukhang hindi siya makukuntento ro'n.

I pushed him lightly as I sat up to take my top off. When I finished, he removed my nipple tapes and started attacking my boobs with kisses. It felt so good... Siya na ang naghubad ng skirt at underwear ko. I saw him licking his fingers before massaging my sensitive flesh. He was so careful as he stretched my insides with two of his fingers.

His hot breath hit my skin. He made me act like a first timer. I didn't know what to do anymore. I covered my mouth to contain my moans. I gasped when he held both of my wrists with one hand and pinned my hands above my head. He stretched my insides more...

"Ahh," I moaned loudly when I felt his member replacing his fingers. "A-Ace..."

"Sage, you're taking pills, right?" His breathing was heavy.. I bit my lower lip and nodded. "Fuck our friendship, I want you."

"Why do I feel so tired already? W-what are you doing to me?" He smirked as I said that. I knew it wasn't only because of his skills... It also depends on the person...

I bit my lower lip harder when he started thrusting. I looked at him in the eyes while he was busy fucking me. I know it turned him on. He placed his hand on my abdomen, making me feel him better..

"Stop biting your lip, it's bleeding." My lips parted when he said that. I moaned loudly, making him smirk. "Gotcha."

"EJ! Ah!" I craned my neck when he started kissing me there. My legs trembled when something exploded inside me... It was followed by his hot juice..

When I woke up, I saw a man standing in front of the vanity mirror. He was wearing a pair of denim jeans but nothing on top. I had the chance to stare at the tattoos on his back. Attractive as hell. He looked like a bad guy with those tattoos.

"You fell asleep right after you came..." He turned around to face me. He was holding a glass of whiskey. With all of his fingers holding the glass, except for his pointing finger. I got scared for the glass because of the way he's holding it. It was literally hanging!

"You d-didn't have to remind me... That was so embarrassing." I felt my cheeks heated. "Thanks for dressing me up.."

"That's a bare minimum, no need to thank me. Do you want to talk about other things?"

"Can you turn around?" He nodded lazily and placed his glass on the vanity table. He slowly turned around. I went off the bed and stood behind him. I caressed his tattoos... "You never showed me these..."

"I did, you were just busy looking at another man. Your name's in there." I searched for my name... SAGE.

"You have so many tattoos. They covered your entire back. They're hella' attractive, I must say." He faced me and smirked. I knelt in front of him.. He caressed my hair and held my jaw.

"What are you doing? I don't want to see you like that. You shouldn't get on your knees for me. You can just sit on the edge of the bed." When he realized that I won't follow what he said, he sighed. He bent his body a little and held my waist to make me sit on the bed. "There, that's better."

"You should've let me... I got used to it-"

"Well, not with me, Laurel. I don't want you to get hurt." His last sentence hit something inside me. I burst in tears... "Sage?"

"Jerrick.. H-he abused me..."

"What did he do?" I saw pain and rage in his eyes. He knelt in front of me and held my hands. My body was trembling in fear.

"P-pinagsamantalahan niya ako.. Kapag h-hindi ko siya pinagbibigyan... sinasaktan niya ako. Araw-araw niya sa aking pinapamukha na laruan niya lang ako. Wala akong pakinabang sa kaniya bukod sa bagay na 'yon.. I couldn't tell you because I was too scared. Too scared for myself, for other people, and for you. He was so jealous of you. I knew he could do something to you... Napapansin ko minsan ang mga pasa at sugat mo, at ayokong dagdagan 'yon-"

"Where's Jerrick? Is he still in that condo unit? We'll fight together and put him where he should be, Sage. I'm not letting him wander around, acting like an innocent person."

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