Chapter 41

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I half expected him to stay, I was stupid to think that

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I half expected him to stay, I was stupid to think that. He may not love Cersei how he loves me, but she's still his sister, and queen. Doesn't mean I forgive him. I wish I could have stayed. Dragonstone is awful, I hate working for this dragon queen, I hate being so close to Jon, the lying bastard. Tyrion has been trying to be a good uncle to the twins, but they just want their father. I don't see the love for this queen. I hate Cersei but I think she will do better than this dragon Queen. That was the point. I decided I wouldn't wait for anyone else to make their choices. I'm going to Jamie, I'm staying with him. While everyone rushes to get home I stand with Tyrion, who's going into the castle to speak to Cersei.
"Tyrion." I whisper as he breaks away from the crowd.
"I'm coming with you." I say and he nods.
"Will you be returning with me?" He asks and I shake my head.
"Very well." He says as we enter, trying to make sure nobody notices me. As we enter the throne room
"I shouldn't be surprised, I suppose. She's your kind of woman a foreign whore who doesn't know her place." Cersei says as we enter, Tyrion took that personally.
"A foreign whore you can't abduct, beat, or intimidate. That must be difficult for you." Tyrion replies, I fight back a laugh, but the twins have no control and laugh loudly, I shush them quickly.
"So you bring her here with her pet Northerner, whom you've convinced to bow down before her." Cersei says, I stay silent. Jon truly was her pet.
"I didn't know about that." Tyrion says, we all knew about that.
"And now you've got them both working towards the same goal, the goal you've worked towards your entire life." Cersei says coming up to us.
"Cersei, I didn't know." Tyrion says, clearly agitated at the assumption.
"the destruction of this family." She says turning back to her chair.
"I am the one preventing that from happening. Daenerys didn't want to debate and negotiate. She didn't want to bring you words. She wanted to bring you fire and blood until I advised her otherwise. I don't want to destroy our family. I never have." He says going over to her.
"You killed our father" she says again, Tyrion looks annoyed again.
"After he sentenced me to death for a crime I didn't commit, yes, I killed him. Hate me for it if you want. I hate myself for it in spite of what he was, in spite of what he did to me."
"Oh, poor little man. Your papa was mean to you. Do you have any idea what you did when you fired that crossbow? You left us open. You laid us bare for the vultures, and the vultures came and tore us apart. You may not have killed Joffrey, but you killed Myrcella, you killed Tommen. No one would've touched them if Father was here, no one would have dared." Cersei says mockingly, Mrycella's death was truly awful, I still remember it.
"I have never been more sorry about anything." Tyrion starts, I did not want to involve myself in this conversation.
"I will not hear it, not from you." Cersei says, Tyrion starts to say something but is stopped.
"I will not hear it!" She yells back.
"All right. You love your family, and I have destroyed it. I will always be a threat. So put an end to me." I look at him, what is he trying to do?
"If it weren't for me, you'd have a mother. If it weren't for me, you'd have a father. If it weren't for me, you'd have two beautiful children. I've thought about killing you more times than I can count. Do it! Say the word." He says turning to the Mountain, who draws his sword, Cersei sighs and the mountain falls back, Tyrion looks at me with a smug look and pours a drink, one for me, one for him, one for Cersei.
"I am more sorry about the children than you could ever know." Tyrion says, Cersei looks raged.
"I will not" she replies.
"I don't care. I loved them. You know I did. You know it in your heart if there's anything left of it." He says pouring himself another drink.
"It doesn't matter. Your love doesn't matter. Your feelings don't matter. I don't care why you did what you did. I only care what it cost us. It cost us our future." She yells, I'm surprised at how quiet the twins have been right now.
"If there's no future, then why are we here? Why did you allow me to come?" Tyrion questions, I know the answer.
"Not to help my enemies collaborate in my destruction." She replies.
"Yes, no, not what you hoped for, but you must have hoped for something." Tyrion says and Cersei rolls her eyes.
"What did you hope for? To make Jon Snow submit to your queen." She says and Tyrion looks annoyed again.
"Mm, not like this." He replies.
"But eventually, you want everyone to bend the knee to her." She says.
"Yes."
"Why?"
"Because I think she will make the world a better place." Tyrion replies, that's a lie.
"You said she'd destroy King's Landing." Cersei says, for once, I agree with her.
"She knows herself. She chose an advisor who would check her worst impulses instead of feeding them." Tyrion says, he's not doing a very good job at convincing.
"That's the difference between you. I don't care about checking my worst impulses. I don't care about making the world a better place. Hang the world." Cersei says, cradling her belly, I knew it, and now Tyrion does.
"That thing you dragged here, I know what it is, I know what it means. And when it came at me, I didn't think about the world. Not at all. As soon as it opened its mouth, the world disappeared for me, right down its black throat. All I could think about was keeping those gnashing teeth away from the ones who matter most, away from my family. Maybe Euron Greyjoy had the right idea. Get on a boat, take those who matter." She says, I finally can't stay silent.
"You're pregnant." I say, she doesn't reply.
"Is it Jamie's?" I ask and she doesn't reply again.

I had to leave the room for a moment after that, but clearly whatever Tyrion said in my absence worked, as Jamie was called to the room, he froze when he saw me.
"Ros." He says and I put the twins down.
"I came back here for you, big fucking mistake." I say and he looks at me strangely.
"What?" He says as the twins clamour onto him.
"Cersei's pregnant." I say and he laughs.
"And she said it was mine?" He says laughing again.
"I don't find any part of this funny Jamie!" I yell and he is still laughing.
"It's not mine Roslyn, it's that Euron Greyjoys." He says and i swat him.
"That bitch! She said it was yours!" I say turning away.
"Oh please, she even tried to tell me it was mine, strange woman." He says coming over to me.
"These two are mine, I don't want any more, unless there with you." He says and I kiss him, I kiss him like I haven't before, we could still do this, I can still run away with him, we could.
"Cersei is sending troops." He says and I nod.
"Thank god." I say hugging him.
"Let me stay with you." I whisper, he looks down at me.
"Daenerys would kill you." He says.
"She already hates me." I say and he smiles.
"What did you do?" He says.
"Her little boyfriend likes me more." I say laughing, Jamie doesn't look impressed.
"Did he do anything?" Jamie asks, I shake my head.
"No, he asked me to marry him. I said no." I say and Jamie kisses my head.
"Thank fuck." He says before going to the twins again.

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