Somewhere in the mind of a teenage girl

Sympathy

!!!TW!!!MENTIONS OF RAPE/SA
I grew up just a little to fast.
I learned that people can be cruel, I learned that it wasn't a sister thing.
All the times I'd cried myself to sleep on vacation. I couldn't say no.
You got mad at me and hit me when I did.
I still cry about it.
People will ask me what's wrong and I can't just say
"oh my sister raped me when I was little."
On vacation, at our grandmas, in our room.
While I was sleeping, while I was watching YouTube, when all I wanted to do was shower.
It didn't stop until I was in 4th grade.
You called me a liar. You corrupted me.
And after everything that had happened you were the one that got therapy.
I had to do everything by myself.
Cope with it by myself, live through it by myself. I had to cope with everything by myself.
I did Christmas Eve by myself!
Fuck you.
I'll keep doin shit by myself.
Take that pill. I don't fucking care.
Cause I'm still dealing with your bullshit by myself.