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I COMPLETELY FORGOT to write in this little notebook for like a couple of days but it's not too bad. Not much happened but there were a few surprisingly good things. And I'm here to write down all of it before I fucking forget them again.

On August 21, Wednesday

I came to school with nothing but my school bag and jacket on (of course I had my uniform and underwear on) and came home carrying another paper bag filled with those tiny stuffed toys and they're squishy. THERE WAS EVEN AN OCTOPUS PLUSHIE THAT HAS A FACE LIKE A HAPPY FACE AND WHEN YOU TURN IT INSIDE OUT IT HAS AN ANGRY FACE.

I love that one so much. I named it Octopussy because I can and it's got sentimental value now. I don't know if that's how it works but it does now. It's so cute and adorable and cuddly and squishy and soft and fluffy. I want to eat it.

No I don't. I'm just having cuteness aggression.

Anyway, it's now August 22, Thursday

Which was yesterday.

My day was pretty average as usual. Answered a quiz in math, got the second highest score. YIPPEE! Boyoung still got the highest score but I'm not complaining, she deserves it. Oh, and Gun (or Park Jonggun, but I'm just gonna go with Gun) got the highest score too. I'm not surprised since he does seem smart, even though he's a bit intimidating.

I still don't talk to him much but he nodded to me when I passed him and we made eye contact. That was fun. He's really quiet and mysterious, probably the type most girls would either be really put off about or they'd be crazy about because it gives him extra hotness points or whatever. I'm not one to have crushes so I don't know how that works.

Speaking of crushes, today, which is August 23, Friday

Someone confessed to Boyoung and she, OBVIOUSLY, rejected him. That girl is very, very, very busy. Like busier than an ant and bee combined. I'm gonna be extremely surprised if she can still fit romance into her schedule when she already has overlapping activities. How do I know this? Well, she's my neighbour. Of course I'd know.

Then a girl confessed to the boy in the seat in front of me (I don't know their names, I don't care, and even if I did, I wouldn't remember it haha), the boy apparently liked her too and now they're dating. They went home together earlier. Holding hands and giggling and shit.

I don't understand crushes. Especially the hidden ones. Like, why expect someone to like you back instantly when you've just been pining for them in secret. You're not making moved, not dropping hints, and not confessing. How are you going to make them like you back?? I'm so confused.

Then there's the extravagant crushes. Like the ones that would go through LENGTHS just to impress their crush. Like bro calm down, you don't have to flex your obviously fake designer clothes to us whenever your crush is there. Do they think liking someone equals to liking the things they have??? I mean I'm not that materialistic so I really wouldn't know.

And the final type of crush, which is crush that confuses me the most, the possessive crushing. The type where the person that is crushing on someone gets VERY possessive over someone that's not theirs. That's not even your boyfriend, please calm down. Those type of people would literally growl at anyone that comes near their crush. Like don't shiver my timbers, he's not my type.

I don't think I even have a type. I've never had a crush in my life so I'd never fucking know. The most I'd say I liked someone was Yoona from Girls Generation, but that was years ago.

Lunch time rolled in and WHAT A SURPRISE! PARK "GANGSTER LOOKING DUDE" JONGGUN ATE WITH ME!

I've got no idea why he sat with me and ate in silence but I gotta thank him since even though it's like I'm sitting next to a brick wall, it's still company. Gun barely talked, he just nodded whenever I'd ask him something quietly, but he does seem to pay attention to what I say. I'd catch him leaning closer whenever I'd speak but that's it.

He's nice, I guess. Still mysterious and quiet but he provides a pleasant company. I really like his perfume too. I managed to stick close enough to him long enough to have the perfume stick onto my clothes as well. Now I kinda smell like him. It's so strong, I'd probably still smell like him when I take a shower tomorrow morning.

Then when it was time to go home (FINALLY) Gun was still there after I finished cleaning the classroom up. I was one of the students assigned to clean after everyone's shit because I accidentally got caught sleeping in class, the other student ditched me for whatever reason.

It was odd seeing him stand on the side with his bag on his shoulder and mine in his other hand. It's like there was a very human looking statue with me while I was cleaning up. He didn't talk the whole time and I didn't think he planned to until we went our separate ways. I figured he was waiting for me to finish since he was just staring at me wordlessly so I fastened my pace. Then after that, we went out together.

It's still odd when I recall it.

It was just us, walking silently together, like half a meter apart. I couldn't say it felt awkward since I liked the silence and it seemed he did too, but it got me thinking of him more.

I never knew we lived in the same neighbourhood since he walked with me all the way home, he even nodded at me before continuing on walking. I also noticed that I was several inches shorter than him. Not that short. I'm taller than most of the class. But I gotta be like right where his chin is or higher. Gun's a tall guy. Taller than I expected. Taller than I remember.

I wonder what goes on in his head on a daily basis. Probably something like "I look cool with my tattoos hehe" or something more intimidating or sophisticated like "These plebians are not entertaining" haha.

I gotta say, he's interesting. I mean seeing as he's practically 2/3 of my diary entry then he's definitely someone that could catch someone's eye. It could be his personality (does he have any??), his appearance (his tattoos), or the general aura he radiates (he's gotta be intimidating for others too, not just me).

So for the ratings.

August 21 was a 10/10, the stuffed toys made me very, very, very happy. Like it made my whole YEAR.

August 22 was 9/10, I barely remember shit.

And lastly, today was a 10/10 too since something unexpectedly nice happened to me today.

Okay, bye bye.