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I WOKE UP far earlier than I usually would just to buy something for [M.Name]. Well, multiple things. I couldn't choose which stuffed toy he'd love more so I got all of them. All of them were octopuses and small, there were no available giant octopus stuffed toys and that got me a bit frustrated.

But since I was going to give these to him, I don't think a large stuffed toy would be something he'd be particularly fond of receiving, especially in a public place. He disliked having eyes on him and I'd hate to be the one to make that happen.

I did the same thing I did yesterday, which was leaving the bag filled with stuffed toys for [M.Name] to find. He accidentally left his wallet this time and came running back to the classroom to find it. Then he saw the bag and took it home with him.

I'm glad he loved the cute octopus plushies, I had to search for all of them personally through online shops. It was cute how he hugged the toy that had a face on it, squishing it and laughing merrily.

Then, in a blink of an eye, it was already the next day.

It was announced that a girl at the very front and I were the ones who got the highest score in the quiz. I wasn't really expecting for anything less than that but hearing [M.Name] getting the second highest score made me happy for him too. I was quite proud since he looked like he didn't get enough sleep last night from studying.

Such a dedicated student. Anyone would like someone that cares about their academics. And I was part of that anyone.

Not because I base my attraction to people by how smart they are — although that could be a factor — but because it means he's responsible.

I like that in a person. And I like that about [M.Name].

He's responsible, sweet, and comfortable to be with. Despite the fact that we've never actually held a conversation together long enough for us to know each other. Or for him to know me.

Then another blink of an eye, it was now Friday.

Time was far too quick to process and I still haven't talked to [M.Name]. All my plans went down the drain just because I keep thinking of how distant we are from each other. How I could ruin his life once I step in it. How I could be the cause of his destruction even if I just told him my name. I don't want him to be caught up with me and I'd like to prevent anything from happening to him as much as I could.

People were confessing left and right and it was starting to become annoying.

I'd call the little crushes these people have on each other ridiculous but I'd be a hypocrite now that I'm realizing how quick I've become attached towards a person that doesn't even know my name.

I found myself looking at him, and he'd be looking somewhere else, smiling to himself with his little thoughts. Then I'd wonder what he was thinking about.

Is he thinking about himself? About his family? About his octopus stuffed toy? About anyone?

I could never know. Well, I can now know since I just got the courage to sit with him at lunch.

My decision in sitting next to him was like something most would call an impulsive action. Something clicked in my brain and my body moved on its own, letting me sit next to the boy wonder and he talked to me.

I wasn't so sure how I'd respond to his little questions and tiny rants but I just nodded, I listened intently to everything he said and admired the way he talked. I couldn't help but feel light just looking at him. I don't think I'll ever get tired of hearing his voice.

It seems luck was on my side today.

I got to walk home with him, his bag in my hand and his presence beside me. I'm happy I could be this close to him, even though there were no words spoken between the two of us.

I liked the silence that enveloped us. It was comfortable and gave me the chance to just soak in his presence, to smell his citrus scent, and to just be beside him. 

[M.Name] was shorter than I expected, he was just below my chin, the perfect height for him to be hugged by someone as tall as I am. But of course, I wouldn't do that. Not when he barely knows who I am. I'm just a stranger to him, after all.

Before I knew it, we walked all the way to his home. I didn't even notice we've been walking for so long, I was far too engrossed in looking at him from my peripheral vision.

I guess this is goodbye for today.