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Hi, Gun!!! I told Goo to send you this little letter (that's just a page I tore out of my notebook) to you a few months after I die.

I know, pretty brutal, right?

So, uhm. I wanted to start this letter off by saying I love you.

I love you, I loved you, I'll always love you. But since I'm dead by the time you're reading this, I'm gonna have to use past tense.

I couldn't bring myself to confess to you because I was scared. I was scared of so many things like you rejecting me, of our status differences, coming out to my parents, and possibly ruining our friendship. I realized I was starting to like you when I noticed how caring you were towards me, the little things you did for me that made me smile, and the times we've spent together.

Whenever I think of you, I can't help but smile and feel my face heat up and try to fan myself to calm down. You just make me feel so safe and happy too. Whenever I'm beside you, I feel like I could fall asleep because I knew you were going to protect me and keep me safe. You also made me experience a lot of new things that I never had because I'm pretty much the type to not go out unless forced to by my parents. And I don't have much friends to spend time with.

Thank you for letting me experience so many things and helping me. And thank you for taking care of me when my dumbass couldn't. Thanks for keeping me out of trouble like waking me up whenever I fell asleep in class. And thank you for making me feel loved.

Remember the necklace you gave to me that has your initial on it? I asked Goo to put it inside the box with the letter, along with all the other things you gave to me.

Oh, and thank you for the headphones, the handkerchiefs, and the stuffed toys.

I knew it was you who gave them to me and I really appreciated it. I told Goo to take care of all of my stuffed toys so you can ask him where Octopussy is, I hope you can take care of him just like how you took care of me.

I'm sorry I died even though I shouldn't be apologizing because death is a natural occurrence but I still feel sad knowing I'm leaving all of you. That I'm leaving you.

I'm sorry I couldn't tell you sooner that I loved you, and that I'm the one I was talking about when I said there's someone out there loving you. I'm sorry I couldn't keep our promises like me staying alive until you can visit me on Saturday. I'm sorry that I broke our promise. I didn't mean to. I tried my hardest to stay alive so we can see each other for one last time. I tried to keep breathing and hoping that I'll wake up feeling better. But the flowers continued to grow and I could only cough them out in agony.

I wish you could've seen how beautiful the flowers were though. They grew inside of me just like how my love grew for you.

I love you, Gun. And I will continue to love you even after my death. Nothing could possibly stop me from sending my love to you now that I'm a wandering spirit haha, I could haunt your house and keep reminding you of me, I could follow you around like that one ghost girl that's on a guy's shoulder for the whole movie.

I just really, really, really love you. So much that maybe it was the death of me. But I'm happy that I died loving you, I don't want to leave this world in any other way.

My life is a book that has come to an end, I did not only dedicate a page for you, you were the chapters that I loved.

This is goodbye now. I love you, Park Jonggun, that's a promise in my death.