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THIS IS GOO. Kim Joongoo. [M.Name]'s cousin.

He told me to write in this little diary of his with whatever has happened to him for the next few days. He told me not to read anything for the sake of respecting his privacy but I couldn't help but flip through the pages and skim through some of his entries.

I have a couple of things to say, especially since this was the only time I've ever met this cousin of mine and he was now dying by a disease that made flowers grow inside his body, making him cough up petals and leaves. I thought it only happened in fiction but seeing it up close, seeing him suffer and slowly die from unrequited love made me realize that most things really are possible.

I don't know how to tell him about the disease and how he could stop himself from dying, knowing he was in love with Park Jonggun.

This was a difficult case of miscommunication and misunderstanding since, from the several years I've known Gun, this was the first time I've ever seen him care for someone other than himself. I knew that they were classmates but I couldn't bring myself to say anything to [M.Name] that I knew Gun too.

I didn't know what was stopping me but it's probably because if I did tell him I knew Gun, he'd be confused and he wouldn't trust me as much as he does right now.

It's currently 8:55 at night and I just got [M.Name] to stop coughing petals and blood, he was sleeping quietly and was hugging the octopus plushie Gun got for him.

Yes, Gun got him the octopus stuffed toy he calls Octopussy. He was also the one who got him the handkerchiefs and the headphones before. Nearly everything was from Gun. But even I am confused as to why Gun is doing all of this for him.

I know he cares for him, much more than he usually would, but why? Why my cousin? Why someone that he barely knew? Why someone that has never experienced love and was now suffering from the very first time he was feeling it?

Right now, I feel like blaming Gun that I'm about to lose a relative. I feel like blaming him that [M.Name] loves him. But that was stupid, for [M.Name] only fell for the person that made him feel happy, and blaming the person he loves meant blaming the love he feels for him.

I don't want to lose [M.Name] as much as his parents do but this disease was incurable. I don't even know if it could be classified as a disease, it was something that involved someone's feelings and the reciprocation of it. And with Gun being this emotionless, cold bastard, I don't think he'd have his feelings returned any time soon.

It makes me sad knowing I can't do anything. It makes me sad that this kid was about to die because of love.

[M.Name] is far too pure, and I still can't believe he fell for someone as harsh, evil, manipulative, and destructive as Gun. He could've fell for someone that was open with how they feel, or someone that doesn't beat people up for work, or someone that can return his feelings.

Love was far too harsh for him.