I'm Not The Guy You're Taking Home [CHARLIE CONWAYXADAM BANKS]{BXB}

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Charlie's POV
I wake up already feeling the awkwardness in the room. Adam is the one making it awkward. He's anxiously pacing not fluidly moving through the room as he usually does. His shoulders are tense and I mumble "wow, you look like shit."

Adam just rolls his eyes at me, grabs his backpack, and goes to class. I say "ouch" and I go and shower than I get ready. I go to class and I see Adam talking with a couple varsity kids. This is torture.

He talks to them but not to me. He's the one that almost kissed me! He really freaked himself out. I sit in front of him and Linda comes in saying "I don't have a choice. This is the last seat." I say "don't worry about it, just sit." She sighs, sitting down, and says "did you finish the homework?" I say "yeah. It took me like years though. I don't even want to think about it." She chuckles saying "me either. No idea why I asked." We chuckle and I say "scarred from the homework."

She says "oh definitely." We smile then the bell rings and Adam is just talking quietly with the varsity guys behind me. His voice just kills me. Adam talking quietly, his voice get deeper, and it's just so sexy.

Wow, I need a life. I need to stop pining over this boy. It's never going to happen. He's so hot. I just cant get over him. I'm around him way too much to do that. I give up.

I sigh and I barely get through the day. I go to practice after school and I go into the locker room, Julie getting ready as she always does. She's always here first. Oh right, Adams not gonna be here. We start coming in, ready for a rough practice from Coach Orien.

We get through practice and I say "I think that was good" and Julie says "don't take advice from Goldberg" rubbing her forehead. I say "you didn't know that before?" She says "guess not" and we chuckle. I say "I think we should go get pizza." Fulton says "I agree." We all go to this pizza place and order pretty much their whole supply.

Should we have invited Adam? I say "guys, should we have invited Adam?" Russ says "he is one of them now." I say "but he's still our friend and he was on our team for like four years." Goldberg says "friends shmiends" shrugging and Dwayne says "we can all leave you, Goldberg." Goldberg says "I was kidding!"

Connie says "I'm sure you were" and Guy says "he was, he's scared to be alone." We all giggle and Goldberg says "aren't we all?" Fulton says "we are kinda codependent." I laugh saying "damn right." Connie says "not something to be proud of" us all giggling at each other. We walk back to the dorms and I go into my dorm to see Adams side of the room crowded with empty boxes.

I say "what are those for? A fort?" Adam says "now I'm on varsity, they're moving me to the other dorm with the rest of the varsity kids. I move day after tomorrow" not even looking at me. I say "damn, well, I'll miss you" quietly and he looks at me, his ears turning a light pink.

Adam says "I have to get to practice, I'll be back in a couple hours." I nod and I do my little bit of homework after he leaves. I'm really going to miss him and his gorgeous eyes and flowy hair he's been letting grow out. Hockey boys always have the good hair, not to flatter myself or anything.

I just read my book and write in my journal in the two hours that Adam is gone. He comes back and I say "make sure the doors locked" quietly and he nods saying "my ex came to watch my practice. Tried to get with Scooter. He's too smart for her. He likes Julie anyway. Nevermind, don't listen to me" quietly.

I say "she was there just to get in your head and you're letting her." Adam says "really?" I say "probably" nodding and he lays down saying "I'm going to sleep" yawning. I say "me too."

The next day

I get up for the day and proceed as normal. Shower, school, practice, shower, finally going to my dorm, Adam leaving, doing my homework, then Adam eventually coming back.

I sigh, looking at him. What a dreamboat. Adam says "ok, I'm done" quietly. I just cant take it anymore. He almost kisses me and leaves me hanging out to dry. I just want to kiss him. That's all I could ever want. I don't need to be anything to him after that.

Who am I kidding? I would die if I didn't have him but it feels like I can't have both. Adam says "what?" I say "huh? Nothing?" Adam says "well, I'm going to go on a walk, I'll be back in a bit." I get up as soon as he starts to leave and he opens the door.

I turn him around, resting my hands on his cheek, and I slam my lips into his. He shuts the door, leaning against it, his calloused hands gently resting on my sides. I don't want this to end. If this ends, he'll never want to see my again. He slowly pulls away saying "sunshine, we can't be doing this."

He just called me sunshine. I can't control myself anymore.

I say "I can't take it anymore, Adam. I just can't take it. I love you and I just can't keep my cool anymore." Adam say "sunshine, you can't just take me by surprise like that. We can't be doing this" looking into my eyes. I say "Adam."

He says "Charlie. I'm just conflicted. All I think about is you even when I had a girlfriend. All I have in my ear is my father saying you will marry a nice girl, go to college on an athletic scholarship, and work a nine to five for the rest of my life. I don't have that scholarship, I could never work a nine to five, and I don't even like girls. I am trying to keep the one that I can control going. That means I can't. Sunshine, I just can't" looking at me sadly. Like a kid that was told they couldn't go play with their friends at the playground.

I say "Adam, what do you want?"