Simmer down

Redemption

Walking to school never had felt more stressful.

"Please answer me this." I whispered to the wind, hoping that god may listen to my hopes and bless my soul.

"Take my life with it good, and whenever the wind blows make it a blessing. For this I would be entirely grateful."

The wind blows

I catch a leaf floating with the wind, I take a look at it. Where does it go? What it's path? I wish my life was as straight forward as this leaf. But no, going to a school where I know nobody is full of misdirection and misfortune. My parents urged me to go to this school in order for a better education, while all my friends went to all these other schools.

It's not like I don't want a good education, bit i just made some new friends at my last school and all those fruits of effort are vanquished.

A few more minutes of walking and I decide to get my hopes up. Am I going to find new friends with my hopes low? No!

Then I think about what if I don't make and either way and that brings them back down.

I put these thoughts which I have to the side as I admire my new school and more importantly, my new social life.

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The school sent out letters to all the students included their schedules. Once I walk in I put  my backpack on the ground and start looking through my bag. And sure enough I forgot to pack my schedule!

"Shit shit shit shit" I forgot to take it back from my parents! Damn, I can't go ask the office on the first day! They'll think I'm a disorganized kid and will think badly of me!

Asking the office was the last thing I was going to do, so instead I got the brilliant idea of searching all my classes and checking which is first period.

15 minutes later I get stopped by a security guard asking why the hell I was looking through every classroom door like a maniac. I told him my situation. He sighed and told me to follow him. Sure enough there was another person behind him. And goddamn she was astonishing

She was pretty tall, just a bit shorter than me. Blue eyes black pants and a white shirt, but what her defining feature was her beautiful long messy hair that almost went to her waist.

I admired her hair for a few second as we were walking, as if in a trance. Suddenly i was snapped back and turn to look at her face. Clutching her notebook over her mouth , looking at me with worried eyes. Unwillingly I force myself look down out of embarrassment.

"Nice wall!" I foolishly said, I don't want to seem weird, but trying to play it off just made it worse. Was my brain broken or something? What kind of idiot do I have to be! In front of this beautiful girl!

Clearly shaken and a little dumbfounded she slowly said "yes, it is- nice" and immediately looked at the ground.

She probably thinks that was really weird and awkward, I just wanna go hide somewhere!

The security guard turns around and breaks the tension.

"Holy shit, she talks?" The security guard says as we both look at him in confusion.

He slowly takes of his glasses and looks me dead in the eye.

"For the past 30 minutes I've been trying to decipher what she was trying to do. She was walking down the hallway and as I was trying to speak to her and she looked like she didn't know English. I had to use motherfucking sign language to understand her."

He glances to take a look at her and to his surprise, she was gone.

His eyebrows clutch together as he looks up and slowly says "Mother Fucker"

15 minutes later I'm at class, my first period was a dental program my school offered. We didn't have to introduce ourselves thank god, instead the teacher let us get familiar with one another. A great time to socialise and make friends! Yet everybody seemed to be acquainted with one another, caught up with their own friends and conversations.

I sat alone at my desk, just pondering on somethings until the door flung open. And surprise surprise, it was the  security guard with the girl. She slowly walks in, in an attempt to avoid any type of contact, I took a look around the room and and noticed everybody took a liking to her, isn't gonna be hard for her to make friends I guess.

Since there were no more seats she sat by me, I which I honestly wish she hadn't as things were awkward enough between me and her.  I feel as if my heart skipped a beat. Goddamn though, she is astonishing. Though immediately I humble myself, I would never b able to get with somebody that cute. Everybody in the class is basically already fawning over her! But damn, my heart is already thumping out of my chest.

I lay out my arm and chest on the desk like I was in an open meadow, free of all conscience. When suddenly I turn my head I see her in the exact same position as me, staring into my eyes. I feel like I found tranquility looking into her blue eyes. Her face suddenly becomes red and immediately sits up right. Realization hit me like a truck as I immediately turn to the other side. I can tell my face is red because some girls are laughing at me and I could easily tell they are making fun of me. I feel like I already messed up my social life, yep I definitely did. No chance at redemption, I feel so awkward right now.

What I've noticed is that the girl is really shy, barely coughing up a few words to the security guard. She probably didn't think I would look at her. What a weirdo I feel like right now goddammit! I breath at take a second to register everything. My teacher then starts on what we will cover this year and the basics. 1st period felt like forever, it was so awkward and I felt like the room was condensing on me. But that was nothing, what crushes me the most is that nobody wanted to chat with me and I still have no friends.

"Well second period can't be bad, right?" I said to myself while walking through the hallway of student in no particular rush to be somewhere. Next up is Algebra II, I always sucked at math so I knew this is going to be a tough year on me. Especially without all my smart friends to help me figure things out.

I walk in as the bell rings and found that everybody has taken a seat, I scan the room for somewhere sit sit. I almost turned pale when the only empty seat was right by the girl. Everybody takes a look at me while I take my seat.

As the teacher settles everybody down he starts talking about all the things we will cover. It honestly was a drag. Though throughout the teachers speech I heard a faint

"Hello?"

I turn and look at her, this time she looks confident with a little expression on her face.

"Heya" I reply

We both share an awkward stare. I look down at her name tag.

"Kalsi, that's your name?" She nods turning a little red in the face.

I take a gulp, I'm a nervous reck. I feel like this is my one chance to make a friend, if I look badly informer of somebody everybody loves nobody would love me. I have to be friendly! I have to make new friends!

"My name is kazemi"

I almost had a heart attack when I said my own name wrong. Goddammit brain what are you thinking???

From that moment, I couldn't tell but now I see it was only the beginning of my new life.