video log // dreamwastaken (sequel to start over)

Day Forever | Baby

The proposal couldn't have gone any better. Once the proposal happened, the wedding soon followed. We didn't need a long engagement. We just needed each other. We locked that in quickly because we couldn't do big. We didn't want big either. We wanted the moment to be intimate.

Sunny looked beautiful. Her hair cascaded down her back in curls. Her simple bouquet supported a single lime green rose and a bunch of white flowers. She pointed homage to our past. She couldn't let it slip away. She always, no matter what, kept a piece of our past in the new things we did.

My mom and Sunny contemplated having her wedding dress be a recreation of the dress I first met her in. But decided that might be a bit too much. So she went for a classic white gown. A gown I knew she'd spent day scrolling pages upon pages on the internet for. She wanted simple, but also one that could cover pasts of her past she didn't want to include. This was our day, she didn't want the broken past to be seen. 

Our lives with our best friends were finally what we wanted. It took a lot to get here, but somehow we finally made it. We had a future to build now. A family to build, if she wanted to. I was happy with or without children. I was just happy to have her.

Sunny did fall pregnant. But she lost the baby. After that, we didn't try again. We both kind of figured that wasn't in the cards for us. It was safer that way, for everyone's hearts. We had had enough loss in our lives that we didn't think we could handle another.

We looked into adopting possibly but it was too much effort. Well, it was more than that, but it was the excuse we went with to make ourselves feel better. Given our circumstances with Sunny's identity issues, adopting wasn't an option we could look into. It would put her and us at risk. 

We very much felt like we would just have to be the best aunt and uncle to our friends kids. We were happy being pet parents and just having each other. It seemed like that's all life wanted for us.

Years go by. Years of a happy and healthy marriage. Nick and George still live with us. Our house hasn't had a loss in such a long time. We have finally been able to just enjoy life for what it is. There isn't the stress of trying to get pregnant or trying to appease anyone. We are just enjoying the company of each other and ourselves.

I'm laying in bed, scrolling through a random article on my phone when Sunny walks into the room. She's glowing, more than she has in awhile. She climbs into bed, straddling herself over me like she does most nights. Her hair is tied back in a bun, her hair is kept away from her face. She smiles lovingly at me, leaning down to rest her head against my chest.

"What's got you so happy my love?" I ran my hands her back before resting them just above her butt. 

"You know how your sister has been taking me out a lot more lately?" She questions me, lifting herself off my chest and propping herself up on my chest. 

I nod my head simply in response. She had been going out quite a bit more with my sister than she had been before the start of this year. But I hadn't thought much of it. I just figured she had gotten more comfortable with going out. With the time growing longer between the incident and now, I just figured that was why.

"I may have a little surprise." Her cheeks blush, almost like she's embarrassed of what she has to say. She flustered and it's the cutest damn thing ever.

"Well spill it!" I usher her. "Don't keep me waiting."

She sits up fully and lifts up her shirt, pulling the fabric off her skin. She reveals her naked body and my eyes study the bare skin before me. I can't help but stare. It's so beautiful. I admire it almost every night. I don't know what made today any different.