Death with a kiss

Creepy pervs... yep that's what makes up my school..

I hid my face with my hair, I was done crying but I still felt pretty shitty. I imagine this was worse than a breakup, becuase as they say boys come and go but friends are forever. Too bad my friend wasn't forever. I felt so akward walking to class alone, and what was even stranger was the looks I was getting from some people. Well not even people really, guys. I noticed that a lot of guys were giving me these creepy ass smiles as I walked past them in the hallway. They better not try anything creepy though or I might just kiss them. Ha, coming from any other girl that would probably have been considered desperate and slutty. But well my kisses are like bullets to the heart, so nope, no sluttiness here. I feel so grumpy, it's like since Toni won't be my friend anymore I don't even care. I'm forever alone, so what? Who needs friends when you can be the loner in class? Yep, I missed her but whatever! Ok no, not whatever, I miss Toni but I'm trying to act like I could care less. I'm a wonderful actress right? Omg, sometimes I just fail at life too much to even consider it a failure, if that even makes sense. Ughhh why am I such a failure?

I was ranting in my head about what a failure at life I was when I heard someone call my name. It was a guy, I just looked at the ground and kept walking. There was no need to run yet. I wasn't going to run through a crowd of very easily irritable teenagers and balding adults who are unhappy with their lives, if it wasn't absolutely neccessary. So for now, I wasn't running. "Yea that's her, fucking bitch ruined my life. But she won't even turn around." said the guy that had called my name. Why would anyone say that about me though? I couldn't be included enough in any guy's life to actually ruin it....  I looked over at the voice's direction when curiousity got the best of me. It was Jerry. What? That didn't make sense though I've never even talked to the guy.

"Oh so now you turn around, you fucking lesbian?!" He looked so angry. I felt a lump starting to form at my throat. His face scared the hell out of me to be honest. I turned around. Now was the time to run. At this moment I knew running was absolutely neccessary. I ran, I made a lot of people angry but luckily I didn't see many teachers around to get me in trouble.

Finally I got to my classroom. I sat at a desk that was far away from my usual one. Because my usual one was right next to Toni's. My heart was finallly slowing down and I could breathe without sounding like an unhealthy person who had just walked up the stairs. I took out my notebook and a pencil just so I would at least look like I was participating in class. What was really waiting for me this period though, was a lot of thinking and maybe some doodling.

I sighed. On my paper was the ugliest bunny I have ever drawn. It looked deformed and kind of creepy actually. It kind of looked like a demonic zombie bunny. It probably reflected how I saw myself. I sighed again, this one was bigger than I intended it to be though. It was actually noticible. I looked around, my eyes wide. Had anybody heard that? Nobody seemed to have heard it... But looking around I noticed this group of three boys sitting next to each other that were smirking very suspiciouslty at me. Well, two of them were anyways. The third one was actually doing his work. But as I looked closer at the third one I noticed that he was one of the creepers from the hallway. What was happening? Did Jerry have anything to do with it? Why had he called me a lesbian anyways? Was it because I was friends with Toni? And he said  it was my fault his life was ruined or something... Did he think I turned her into a lesbian or something? Probably... I was the one with the "guy phobia". Oh, how people could twist anything into nonsense. I couldn't believe Jerry was such an ass though. I thought he was better than that. Oh well, you never know with people. Especially ones you've never really met.

Wait... Jerry probably spread sround a rumor of me being some slut or something, one that was into girls too... The one thing that attracts perverts like honey attracts bees. Great, I'm probably going to really have a guy phobia after this. What would Toni have done if she had come to school today? Would she have defended me or would she have just looked away? I don't even know anymore... Maybe she would've even gone on Jerry's side? I don't know.. Loosing your friend right when you need her the most. How awesome....  

*Later that day*

"You know babe, I don't believe in those rumors that are spreading around." I heard a male british voice say. I was sitting on a bench outside of the lunchroom in the upstairs media lounge,  waiting for lunch to end. I looked up to see some guy I've never even seen in my life. I looked down hoping he'd leave me alone. I didn't really feel that urge yet but uf he sticked around.. who knew?

"I think you're worth more than any of these losers can handle actually. The way you took control over your friend and made her some sort sex slave... it really turns me on." he whispered into my ear. Oh my GOSH!!! Of course I was freaking out by this point, this guy not only dares to talk to me but he whispers into my ear?! And the words that come out of his mouth... what a creeper! And of course, probably the grossest part of it all... I wanted to kiss him. It was my curse... One that I hated a lot right now. I slapped him, it was the only way I could think of to make him move out of my way fast enough so that I could run. Not only that but he damn well deserved it. He gave me enough space for me to make a run for it, he had been extremely close to me.

As soon as I got to one of the bathrooms I calmed down a little. But I was still freaking out. Is that what Jerry had said about me? That I had controlled Toni and made her into my... what?!?! Oh my gosh, I knew he was twisted but seriously?! Ughhh I'm going to die!!!! I wish I was dead at this point.. don't see how it could get worse...