You and me

Part 22

Y/N POV 

"I am on the bench." I have never been more disappointed in my life. I worked so hard for this and yet Aubrey put me on the side lines. I don't know what I did wrong to deserve this. I know that I am new to the team but I thought that I had shown everyone that I deserve to play. Well, this is a set back. I don't know what I can improve so that Aubrey will let me play. Everyone is chatting with each other but I can't hear them. It's like I got this buzzing tune in my ears and I can't listen to anything. I sit back down at my spot and just put my hands in my hair. I am really fighting my tears here. I can't cry because of this. It happens all the time, players that aren't playing in the starting eleven. But this time it just feels different. I worked my ass off to prove to everyone that I am worth it. Maybe I just need to work harder than before. I will improve my stamina and my skill level. I don't know how long I sat here but when I look up I see that everyone is already gone. I sit back a little longer thinking about all my possibility's. After some time I get myself up and I put my running shoes on. Running always cleared my head so I hope that it will work today. 

I get outside on the track and start running some laps. I take it easy in the beginning but then I start sprinting. I push every dark memory to the side and just push my body to it's limits. I am on the verge of stopping because I am so tired at this point that I will just fall on the floor. Just when I wanted to stop my phones goes off in my pocket. I take it out and see that Lizzie is calling me. Yeah, she knew about the names that were posted today so she is probably calling to see if I made the team. I stop running and pick up the phone. 

Lizzie: Hey superstar, how did it go? 

Y/N: Not so good, I didn't make the team. 

I sound so out of breath, I can barely talk by how tired I am. But hearing Lizzie makes my day a little better. 

Lizzie: I'm sorry, you deserved it. 

Y/N: Thank you Lizzie. 

Lizzie: Are you crying? Do you want me to come and see you? 

Y/N: No, thank you. I was just running to build up my stamina and I am a little out of breath. 

Lizzie: Are you sure that I don't need to come? I don't want you to be alone after you received bad news. 

Y/N: I am sure, thank you though. I just need to train a little longer and then I will go to sleep. But I will see you tomorrow. Are you still coming even if I won't play? 

Lizzie: Of course I will come. I want to see the game, not everything is about you. 

We both laugh because it's obvious that she was sarcastic. She just wants to see me and that makes me smile. 

Y/N: Thank you for giving me a call Lizzie. 

Lizzie: No worries, but don't push your limits. Go to bed when your body is tired. 

Y/N: I will mom. 

Lizzie: I am serious Y/N, don't push yourself too much. 

Y/N: I promise that I won't push myself too much. But I really need to go now otherwise I won't be in bed at a decent hour. 

Lizzie: Alright, I will see you tomorrow. 

Y/N: Yes, I can't wait. 

I end the call and all I can do is smile. Lizzie just always finds a way to make me smile, even in situations that are shit. I put my phone back in my pocket and start jogging a little bit. I always take a few laps after a work out because it feels so good. You just had a really intense work out and if you run on a good tempo after that it will improve you work out for the better. I am in my final lap when I see Aubrey coming out of the building. I now that I can't be mad at her but I can't contain it. I worked so hard and it's like she didn't even see it. I won't let her see that I am angry because the eleven girls that are selected also deserve it and I know that Aubrey made though decisions. I am just so disappointed. "Y/N, come here!" I hear Aubrey calling for me so I jog up to her. "Yes coach?" I just want to act professional right now because otherwise I might snap at her.