You and me

Part 28

Y/N POV 

Me and Lizzie are going so strong. It's been a week after my decision and I feel so happy. After my grandma passed away I lost a piece in myself and I had this constant sadness within me. This feeling got smaller when I was with Lizzie but now that my life feels complete again, I don't have this feeling anymore. Sometimes it comes back and then it hits harder then before but I am just glad that I get to enjoy my life again. I quit my job at the bar because it was just too much to combine. I am not going to lie, I loved that job but I love football even more. I thought long and hard about it but it's the best that I quit. I didn't have any free time and I know that I would overwork myself if I kept the job. Also, my pay has improved since my contract changed so for once in my life I can focus on football and football only. I still have a week to go before I can play again and I am so exited. The first week I have trained with the squat and they don't know my decision yet. Aubrey is planning on telling them in the meeting today. Aubrey told me that I need to take this week for myself to prepare myself mentally. I don't need to go to training until the doctor has cleared me. On Monday I will get my scan when it comes out clear, I can make my first appearance at the game on Wednesday. 

This little vacation is at the perfect timing because I plan on taking Lizzie to my home town. Me and Lizzie aren't official yet but I have this whole plan to ask her. I just want to take her to my home town so that she can see where I came from. It's the perfect get away for us and I know that I will be busy whit training and games so I want to spend my last free time with Lizzie. Now I just hope that she doesn't have any filming going on at the moment because that would ruin the surprise. Maybe I should ask her if she has time before I plan all of this. 

Y/N                                                                                                                                                                                                       Hey Lizzie, I want to plan a little trip for us. Are you free the next three days? 

Lizard🦎                                                                                                                                                                                     Yeah, I don't have anything going on for the next few weeks. Where are we going? 

Y/N                                                                                                                                                                                                       That's a surprise. I will pick you up after the meeting. 

I lock my phone and get ready for the meeting. Normally I would just go in my training outfit but I am going straight to Lizzie after this so I need to dress up. I put on a white nike t-shirt. The logo from nike is at the front and it has this nice blue color. I put on some black loose trousers and some white nike shoes. This is the perfect outfit for a long car ride. I know that Lizzie probably has seen London but I want to show her the little things that are important to me. I have lots of pubs and restaurants were I want to take her. I just want to let her in my life a little. 

If I am being honest, I am kind of scared to ask Lizzie to be my girlfriend. I don't know how long it's supposed to take between the dates and the actual question but I think that I am ready. We are now two weeks in and I know that's fast but I just don't want to wait any longer. My last relationship didn't end very well but we were inseparable from the first second that we saw each other. I don't want the same toxic situation as back then but Lizzie is not the same as Allison. Maybe I wasn't over her before and I don't know is I will ever forget the kind of love that I had for her but I have grown these past few days and I can think about her without freaking out. This is a huge step in my recovery because I never would have imagined that I could get over her. First I didn't think that I was worthy of any love because of Allison but Lizzie really made me realize that I deserve love. 

I really want to visit my grandpa when I am in Londen but I don't know if it's too soon. Maybe it is but in this way I can really show her who my biggest support is and how much family means to me. Obviously I will first ask her if she is comfortable with it but if she is then I won't hesitate to bring her. While I think of everything that I want to do, I arrive at the training grounds. I quickly make my way in the meeting room so that I won't be late. There are already a few people but I am one of the first to arrive. Everyone is in training gear because they just did some exercises in the gym. 

"Y/N/N why weren't you in the gym with us?" Katie asks me. Normally I would come to the gym and train what I can whit my injury but today I was a no show. "I am going on a little holiday today while my hand properly heals." I don't need to walk around with the splint anymore but I still need to be very careful. "Well, enjoy it because when you are back you won't get many free time." I give Katie a small smile but I really can't wait to get back to playing. Don't get me wrong, I love the free time and I really needed it but I also want to play as much as I can. the game that the team has this week is not that important but if they lose I will feel that it's my fault. Not that I make a big impact on the game but I like to believe that I will do anything in my power to try and win the game. 

I take a seat somewhere in the middle while everyone else starts to come into the room. Everyone is seated and Aubrey comes into the room to start the meeting. "First of all I want to address something so that it's out of the way." Everyone looks at each other and I know that this is about my new contract. "Olivia has decided to quit. I know that we have a reserve keeper and she will play this week but Y/N will fill the new spot in goal when she is cleared by the doctor." This was short but powerful, everything that needed to be was said and Aubrey was never the person to make a big speech. I see everyone looking at me and whispering to each other. In an instant I feel very small. "Are you fucking kidding me! I work my ass of to be in the starting eleven and when Olivia quits I would have thought that the spot would go to me but instead you hire someone else! This is such bullshit!" I look to my left and see the second keeper standing up and making a fuss. I get it, she needs to wait for a chance to prove herself and when it comes it sucks that she doesn't get the chance but it happens in football. She will have a chance this week to prove herself and if she deserve the spot she will get it. "Vanessa, can we discuss this in my office. I didn't want to offend you but this kind of things happen in football. I made this decision but I know that I still have a good back up." 

Nothing is going to make this better for her but I just hope that Aubrey handles this in the right way. She knows how to comfort people but sometimes she doesn't see what people need the most. "No, this is bullshit! This girl is in this team for what two weeks and she already gets a new contract. I have been busting my ass for the last five years and you choose some child over me!" I sink down in my chair and try to just disappear. I guess that she is mad but she doesn't need to offend me. "Vanessa come to my office now! I get that you are disappointed but I will not tolerate you talking to your teammates like that. For the rest of you, the meeting is dismissed I will see you in training. Go warm up and I will be there in half an hour." 

Everyone walks away and some congratulate me on my new position but I kind of feel on outsider. I know that I made the right decision but right now it feels so wrong. I walk to my car and try to forget about this shit show because my trip with Lizzie starts now. I am so exited to see what this trip is going to bring for us. I send Lizzie a quick text that I am on my way and start the journey. This is going to be so much fun!

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Hey guys, a little chapter for you all today. I am really sorry that it took me this long to post but I am so busy with my exams. I am trying my best to update more but if I am being honest, it's really hard. I will do my best to update more but I can't promise anything. 

But thank you so much for reading my story and supporting me in the journey. 

I love you all and I hope that you will have a great day. Lots of love and enjoy this little chapter. There is coming a bigger chapter next so it may take a little more time to right but I will do my best to do it as quick as possible. 

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