Fight For Her (Devil's Right Hand MC #2)

Chapter 33

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Driver's POV

When I first became a father, I knew there would be hard moments in which I would have to say goodbye to her. I thought about how hard it would be to see her drive off to college or move out of our home. I thought about how it would shatter me to walk her down the aisle on her wedding day. There were a million scenarios that I anticipated, but I never thought we would have to say goodbye to her now. I never thought we would have to say goodbye to our four-year-old forever.

Now, all of those moments I used to dread, I grieve. I grieve because I will never get the chance to drive her to college and help set up her dorm room. I will never get the chance to threaten her first boyfriend. And I will never get the chance to see her as a gorgeous bride, even though I would still imagine her as the little girl she will always be in my eyes. I will never get a chance to protect her like every dad should.

After the judge leaves the room, Brenna gets back into bed with Hazel she just holds her and cries. As hard as this is for me, I know it is a million times worse for her. She carried this baby inside of her. She is her mother and no mother should ever have to bury their child.

"Brenna," Clove says as she walks into the room. "I have the papers."

The papers. Those damn papers, those are papers no parents should have to worry about, but I can't even sign them. I can't sign them because as much as it feels like she's mine, she's not.

"Okay," Brenna mumbles as she gently gets out of bed.

"The first paper is the DNR. This says that if she codes again we wouldn't intervene. You guys could get into bed with her, and she would go peacefully," Clove says as she tries to hold back tears.

"Okay," Brenna mumbles as she holds the pen on the dotted line but she hand doesn't move. I can't imagine what this feels like. She is so strong to be able to do this because if the roles were reversed, I'm not sure I could.

"The next set of papers is the withdrawal of care forms. This will mean we disconnect her life support. You can choose when to sign these if you want more time," Clove adds.

"More time?" Brenna questions as her hand finally moves and she signs the DNR form.

"If you want to make preparations before," Clove adds.

"What kind of preparations?" I ask as I finally find my voice.

"Um- funeral plans," Clove whispers.

Funeral plans? They want us to make funeral plans BEFORE she dies?

"Why would we do that now?" I ask but it comes out more harsh than I intended.

"Some parents find it better to have everything done before. When it happens, neither of you knows how you will react. It might be better to just have everything off of your plate so you can grieve," Clove explains.

"I don't want to leave her," Brenna says. This entire time neither of us could stand being more than a few feet from her, especially now that we know there is a time limit. We want to soak up all of her greatness now before it's gone forever.

"I have a contact at Adam's Funeral Home, I can get them here to make arrangements. We can use the conference room across the hall," Clove says.

"Okay," Brenna responds as she hands her the DNR. "I-um- I don't want to sign the other one yet. Can we wait until tonight?" She asks as she looks at me.

"We can wait as long as you want to," I mumble as I pull her into me.

"Okay, I will file the DNR and call my contact," Clove says as she leaves the room.