Behind closed curtains [HYUNLIX]

seven

Felix:

It's been a week since the king and prince Hyunjin came back.

The summer had reached it's peak and we would constantly get fried during our training.

Which led me to train shirtless more often.

The boys gazes got less and I felt more and more comfortable with training shirtless.

But still, I always had the feeling as if someone was watching me during practise.

But I never saw someone staring at me.

Okay well, I never really tried finding someone who starred at me, because I assumed it would be some random girl.

Of course I had noticed the girls gazing at me when I walked across them, I even heard their talks during lunch.

It seemed like I was their second favourite theme to talk about.

I didn't mind about it.

But it was clear who still dominated their talks...

Hyunjin.

I was pretty good at avoiding him.

We never sat together at lunch and I tend to walk through the cold, relaxing shadows of the forest during my free time, instead of gathering in the common room.

Because I knew he would show up there from time to time.

But I couldn't stay away completely from him.

Something about him kept pulling me towards him.

Something about him made my gaze search for him as soon as I entered the dining hall.

Something about him made me inspect his body longer and more intensive than the others.

Something about his voice calmed myself but attracted me at the same time.

I knew what was happening to me.

I knew what he was doing to me.

But I still let my hungry gaze linger on him every day.

I couldn't stop my thoughts from circling around him.

And I couldn't stop my stomach to get nervous whenever our eyes would meet.

I would normally blush and turn away quickly, or just stare at him longer till he looked away.

My gaze would usually slid to his lips when he didn't notice.

Or I admired his long, slender fingers.

But nothing had escalated yet.

Gladly.

And I preferred it to stay this way.

I would admire him from afar, without risking a stupid action.

Because it was usual for my body to react before I could think about the consequences properly when it came to my bodies needs.

That's why I kept my needs low.

Didn't allow my thoughts to escalate and imagine his surely really attractive body without its clothing.

That's why I never skipped lunch to see him practising.

Many girls and boys did that actually.

They would come back and spill all the tea they had seen.

I tried to not listen to their reports of him training but still heard them speaking about him training shirtless.

Of course he would do that, I mean it's incredibly hot outside, so who wouldn't train shirtless?

But I still wished he would.

Because it would stop my imagination from trying to draw a picture of his surely toned body.

And it would stop the urge to go skip lunch and stalk him while he's training.

The weeks kept passing by and soon my first month here came to an end.

It was still unbearable hot outside and even inside now.

But I refused to take my shirt off inside these walls.

Many boys did take their shirts off, mainly to flex with their muscles in front of the girls.

And I was considered very lucky that I hadn't seen Hyunjin walking around without a shirt on yet.

He refuses to do it to my luck.

Because I knew it would be my final straw.

I knew I would do something I shouldn't do and I was scared.