Behind closed curtains [HYUNLIX]

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Second update today for my loves! 💗

I'm already sorry in advance... 

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Felix:

I felt the atmosphere easing around us while our lips tasted the others. Receiving comfort in the action. I held him close and breathed his earthy scent. His lips tasted a bit salty thanks to the tears that stung onto them.

Once we parted our faces to catch a breath we both warmly smiled at each other and hugged the other close. If we have each other nothing will happen.... Right?

"I don't want to speak about it yet.", Hyunjin's low voice cut my thoughts short, "Sorry." "No, no, don't be sorry.", I quickly soothed him down, "You don't have to tell me now. If you want to tell me about it one day, I will be here to listen, I promise."

"But- but what if you aren't here?", he suddenly sobbed and his face paled. I felt my heart shattering, what was he saying?

"What are you talking about?", I asked confused, "I will always be here, by your side, till death parts us. We don't know what the future holds for us but I'll be at your side, I promise. I promise that with all I have."

Quiet sobs escaped his lips again and his eyes shone while he really tried to calm himself down, "I'm sorry- I... I shouldn't be crying, I'm- I'm so sorry.", loud sobs interrupted his sentence and I felt my heart shattering into a million pieces again.

"D- Don't apologize, its okay, I- I'm here.", I reassured him, slowly feeling the tears gathering inside my eyes as well, as his sobs shook his onto mine pressed body.

He held me as if I would leave any second, which I wouldn't. I will never leave him.

"I- I'm sorry.", he apologized again. "No, Jinnie don't appolo-" "I- I feel so heavy... please hold me tight.", his voice trailed off while his head sunk onto my chest. My heart quickened, what is happening?

"Jinnie? Jinnie what is wrong?", I questioned, panicking as his eyes fluttered shut. "I... tired... just.", his voice trailed off into my chest while heavy tears streamed down his face and heavy sobs shook his body, "Please- Please don't leave me.", he begged

"No- No Jinnie I wont. Jinnie? Jinnie!", I called, actually panicking now. My heart was racing as I pulled his head up, only to meet his hooded eyes and pouty lips. He was as pale as a ghost.

His forehead wasn't burning, his pulse was normal and he was breathing steadily. So what's wrong?!

"Jinnie? Jinnie can you hear me?!", I nearly screamed, even though he was laying only inches away from me in my lap. But I only received his eyes fluttering shut and incoherent words leaving his pretty lips.

My world shattered before me and my heart was racing out of my chest while I desperately tried to figure out what was happening. I've never experienced something like this before.

I couldn't leave him, I promised to never do so and he needed me right now, I knew that for sure. But on the other hand I myself needed help, I was clearly overwhelmed and panicking, not able to think properly.

"Help!", I screamed at the top of my lungs, hoping someone is out there and hears me. "Help!", I screamed louder as Hyunjin's heavy head fell back onto my stomach. His whole body went limb, it looked nearly... lifeless.

"No, no, no, Jinnie!", I now cried, the tears flowing down my cheeks and my heart tight. I wasn't able to breath. "HELP!!", I screamed again.

Nothing happened. His door stood shut and his body remained nearly lifeless. It looked as if every bit of life had left his body... but I clearly felt his heart beating against my shaking hand against his chest.