Behind closed curtains [HYUNLIX]

seventeen

Felix:

I felt the air his heavy breathing was causing on my sensitive neck skin while I was providing him space for his heavenly sloppy kisses along my collarbones.

I let the air escape my mouth with a shaky breath, dangerously close to a way too loud moan.

His response was a muffled groan against my Adams apple.

My skin was prickling due to the vibration his groan had caused.

He was now looking up to me, right into my eyes while his hands slipped lower and lower on my body. His eyes were full of desire and his lips curled into a smirk when he saw the pleasure running through my face.

But suddenly his look changed, instead of that dangerously high amount of desire in his gaze would now be concern and... sadness?

He placed his hands next to my head again while he moved besides me, sitting down on his comfortable bed.

I tilted my head in confusion, what's wrong? Did I do something wrong?

But with one look at his still pretty visible erection and the remaining amount of lust and desire in his eyes confused me even more.

"My father will be here in a few minutes.", he spoke up as I questioningly looked into his brown, still hungry eyes. "And I don't want him to see us like this.", he stated.

His words somehow affected me in a not so good way. 'I don't want him to see us like this.' he had said.

And of course he was correct. He could cause himself problems if anyone knew about this between us.

He's the prince.

He should be normal.

But it still hurt... his words were like small daggers pointing towards my heart. I should have seen this coming... he's the prince, he has a reputation.

And I could ruin that reputation. I could ruin it as badly as I wanted him to ruin me.

"I'm sorry Yongbok.", he whispered, "Believe me, I truly want this, I want you, but I cant. I have to protect my reputation. I hope you understand that."

He refused to hold eye contact and rather scanned his hands.

"So this ends here?", I whispered back. I don't want to believe this.

"Listen Yongbok, I don't want to end it, believe me. And I know it will be really hard, literally, to stop this but we have to try. I cant risk my reputation.

Neither can you.", he stated and his eyes actually met mine, "You can fix yourself in my bathroom if you want to but I need you to leave afterwards. Otherwise I would make my previous words unhappen and unravel you right here, right now."

The lust rushed back through my body thanks to his words but I had to control myself.

"You know I wouldn't mind you doing so....", I whispered, breaking the intense eye contact.

"I know, that's the problem, I really want to do it but I cant.", he sighed ultimately killing the fire inside my body.

"I know.", I simply whispered while I slowly stood up.

"I'm so sorry Yongbok.", he whispered while his eyes searched for mine. But I couldn't face him right now.

Instead I pulled my shoes on and walked towards his door, I didn't want to jerk off in his own bathroom, I could do it at my own.

But before I reached the door I turned around one more time.

"I understand your reasons Hyunjin.", I stated, "And I'll try my best to fulfil them."

I gave him one last sad smile before I exited his room.

Outside his room I took a deep breath and speed walked back to my room.

Fine, if he wants it like this...

I'll try.

---------------------

I'm so sorry (not really)

Hi btw to all the possible Carats reading this since its the seventeenth chapter ahaha

God my humour is weird... but who carrrees

I rather should start writing the next chapter...

~Tayy 💗