lonely; prequel for alone

Prologue

"Leah get up... Its time for school." Ashton said as he opened my door slightly.

I get up, roll out of bed, go down stairs to see Ashton sitting at the table eating cereal. I grab a mug and poor some coffee, then I sit down at the table with him. I'm surprised when he starts talking to me, but its nice because we never talk.

"So... It's your birthday in two weeks and I was wondering what you wanted." He said while finishing up his cereal.

"well... I was wondering if you, mom, and I could just go out to dinner and hang out for the day. I just want to have family time." He nodded and then he got up and put his bowl in the sink.

"You sure? You don't want like cash or like a necklace?" I shook my head and finished up my coffee. "Okay then... I'm going to head to school. Bye sis." I waved him good bye and headed up stairs to get ready. 

I brush my hair and decide to wear it down and natural. I throw on my over-sized white sweater, with a pair of leggings, and some toms. I grab my bag and a banana, kiss my mom good bye and head to school. I don't under stand why Ash drives we literally live 2 blocks away, and if you walk you can stop at starbucks on the way. I remember when we would drive together... he would drop me off at my school on the way to his. I was going to Cara Middle School... it was an all girls school. Driving with him was fun, we would blast All Time Low and sing along... that was 2 years ago, before he changed. I never understood why he changed, it's like he went to school one day and came home a totally different person. I know he loves me, but I feel like sometimes he wishes he was a lonely child. When we were younger we lived in a very tiny house and we had to share a room, that was fun because we were so close. People used to tell my mom that it's crazy how we got along so well because usually siblings so close in age end up fighting. In a way I wish we were fighting all the time because at least we would be interacting, because I hate how he never talks to me anymore. I feel like he is embarrassed to be my brother because I'm not popular,he is... I'm a nerd and he isn't, I'm everything he's not and I can tell it's embarrassing. It's crazy because when he has friends over he makes me stay in my room until they leave... no one even knows we're related.

"Earth to Leah... Hello?" Wesley waves his hand in front of my face.

"Sorry... Thinking." I say as we approach my locker.

"Like always..." He chuckles. "So...Leah, I was also thinking. We should go to the mall so I can buy a tux."

"A tux? What for?" I ask as we walk into our home room.

"I asked Bella to Homecoming and she said...yes." He said with a smile.

"That's amazing Wes! Good for you, yeah we can go to the mall. How about Saturday?" He nodded and the bell rang so we took our seats as Ms.Flemming walked in.

***

It was lunch... This is when I usually go to the library because Wesley has next lunch. Normally when I stay in the lunch room I see Chad... My bully, and I don't wanna see him. It's okay because I only have 3 classes left and then I can go home and do homework. i still have 45 minutes until lunch was over, so I put my earbuds in my ears and listened to Shawn Mendes while I started my homework. While doing my homework I start thinking and I realized that Ashton has his friend Calum spending the night tonight because they have a game tomorrow night and they want to get some extra practice in before school. That means I have to grab food go to my room and stay there all night... darn it. Ashton says I'm weird because I don't say bad words, which is weird because he didn't start to say bad words till he joined the footie team about a
year ago. He didn't know what a condom was until he was 13 and I knew when I was 8. I really do miss the old Ashton, and I'm really tired of him hiding me. He's my brother... her should love me for who I am. Right? Right. I mean sometimes I really wish I had a sister or a friend who is a girl, don't get me wrong... I love Wesley so much, but I cant talk to him about girl stuff because he doesn't get it. What if I do have a sister... A real sister, A biological sister.That would be cool, what if she hates me though... what if she shuns me just like my real parents did. The more I think about it, a lot of people have shunned me; Ashton, My parents, Most kids at school, Half of the whole world, The choir coach, and many more I'm sure. 

I start think about a bunch of different things and end up forgetting that I only had 45 minutes. I had checked my phone and realized I was late for biology, so I packed up my stuff and ran to class. I had gotten there 7 minutes late but the teacher excused it since I'm always on time and I'm a straight A student. I did the lab we were doing while my partner slept the whole time. After that I went to French, then off to PE. When PE was over I grabbed all my stuff and headed home, I was happy because I didn't run into Chad and I'm also happy because Ash won't be home for 2 hours because he has practice tonight. When I got home I went and got an apple and sat on the couch, I decided to put on Skins because that is the best show on Netflix and because Chris is really hot. After 2 episodes I decided to grab some food and take it to my room because My big brother would be here in 15 minutes. As soon as I get in my room I change into my sleep shorts and my zip up sweater, while playing some classical music. I don't know why I love it so much, it's just so calming. When I hear Ashton's car pull up I turn off my music so that they can't hear it, so tat Calum wont know I'm here. I hear them walk up the stairs...

"I'm telling you Ashton, girls with brown hair are way hotter than girls with blonde hair."

"No... Blondes are way hotter Calum, you have no idea what you are talking about."

"Whatever dude, lets just play some Call of Duty." As Calum says that the door shuts and the guns are loud.

I know that they will play for like an hour so I know I can turn up my music now, still classical because it's quiet. I will also do my homework this next hour as well. 

***

It's nine o'clock which means Ashton and Calum went to bed 15 minutes ago, which means i can go down stairs to get food. I open the door very slowly to make sure no one is out there, then I go down the hall towards the stairs. Right when I thought I would make it, someone comes out of the bathroom... Calum. Oh crap, he looks right at me, he looked scared at first, then confused, then he says something.

"Uhh...hi?" He says slowly.

"Hello." I reply as I start to walk down the stairs, but he grabs my arm.

"Wait! What are you doing here?" He seems extremely confused.

"well... Umm, I sorta, kinda... live here."

"Who are you?" He asks.

"I am... leaving." I say as I run towards my room and slam the door and press my back against it.

"Oh no." I breathe out as I slide down the door. "Ashton is going to hate me."

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