lonely; prequel for alone

Chapter 1

I'm woken up by the sound of a ball bouncing on the floor, I sit up and look at the clock on my night stand, it's 7:33. I stand up and walk over to my closet, I look through my clothes and decided to wear a pair of light blue jeans from Hollister and a red Nike pull over sweater. I make sure Calum and Ashton are in the room before I run down the hall towards the bathroom to take a shower. I get in the shower and just sit there while I run my hands over my face a few times. I love taking showers because this is my thinking time and I think a lot, people tell me I'm an over thinker... I always wonder, what if I didn't think a lot what if I was like Ashley Smiths? Everyone at school loves her, shes outgoing, pretty, nice, gets invited to all the parties, why can't I be her? I start to shampoo my hair as I start to think more about my biological family, I never knew them, but I kinda want to. I wonder what Ashton would think if I told him... Would he be mad? Sad? What if he ended up hating me because I wanted to meet my real family? My train of thought is interrupted when there is a banging on the door.

"Get out you've been in there for 20 minutes I'm going to be late!" yelled Ash from outside the door.

I turned the shower off and I wrap my towel around me as I go to open the door. As I open it Ash comes in and slams it. He is blocking the door and looks very mad at me.

"I told you to stay in your freaking room until Calum left!" He shouts at me, I feel like crying because he never yells at me and he's scaring me.

"I was hungry..." I say quietly as I look down.

"Well you should've ate more before I came home." He says while crossing his arms.

"Why are you embarrassed of me?" I ask and his face softens.

"What? I'm not, you're my sister..." I shake my head before he can finish and he sighs in defeat "I just... It's like, well. You're not the coolest girl in school and I'm popular. If people found out YOU were my sister... I would be lame." He says as he looks to the floor and rubs the back of his neck.

I push him out of the way and walk to my room. I slam the door and run to my bed, I break down. I just cry and cry I don't even care about school at this moment, i just feel hurt. My brother thinks I'm lame, I know I'm not popular but... I didn't know people thought I was lame. I get up, still crying and I get dressed, for a moment I think about skipping school but I decided that would be a bad idea. I throw my hair into a ponytail and I pull on my UGG boots and run out the door. I saw Calum sitting in Ashton's truck waiting in the driveway, I know he saw me running because he got out the truck and ran after me. He tried to catch up but I was too fast, I just wanted to get away from Ashton. Once I was around the corner I stopped running and just walked. I was walking up the stairs of the school stilling crying, I was Wesley at his locker so I run to him and just cry into his shoulder. He grabs we and just hugs me telling me it's okay, everything will be okay even though he doesn't know whats wrong. After about 5 minutes I calm down and he asks me what's wrong.

"Ashton admitted that he is embarrassed of me."

"Well he's an idiot because you are perfect and if he can't see that he is a horrible brother..." He says "But tomorrow we can go shopping and you will get your mind off things." He gives me a small hug and then the bell rings.

"Oh! I have to go help out the principal today so I will see you later..." I totally forgot I had to help Mr.Johns today... thank god I remembered.

"Okay, bye Leah."He waves

I walked into the office and instantly got heated. I can't believe this would happen. I thought I was the only on helping Mr.Johns.

"Ahh... Leah, this is Calum. He volunteered to help me out today, once he heard you were helping he was just so excited..." Calum looks over at me and smiles, I just ignore him and continue to listen to Mr.Johns. "You guys are going to go and clean out the storage room down the hall for starters. When you guys are done, come back and we will see what time it is and we will see if you have time to do one more thing that I have planned." He set us off to the storage room and I wish he hadn't.