lonely; prequel for alone

Chapter 11

FIRST THINGS FIRST.... MALUM AF

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I'm still standing where Michael left me 10 minutes ago, and I hear the door open. I look up from my feet and see Calum, I feel so guilty for kissing Michael, but I'm technically single. Right? I look at Calum and he smiles at me and walks over to me.

"I got you something." He says and grabs my hand, he's not making this easy. "Come on." He pulls me outside to his truck and i gasp at what I see.

"Decorations?! House Plants?! Frames?! Oh my God! You listened to me!!" I jump and wrap my arms around his neck.

"Anything for you baby." He whispers in my ear, I open my eyes and see Mikey leaning on the door frame smirking at me.

"I love you Calum." The words sounded so wrong coming from my lips, was that the truth?

"I love you Leah, I need to talk to you." I nod and we get inside the truck.

"What's up?" I look at Calum and he grabs my hand.

"I want you to move in with me." He looks at me hopefully.

I am a horrible person, I officially hate myself. Why did I do that? I hate myself so much, I know I'm going to kiss Michael again, but I'm also going to accept Calum's proposition.

"Uhm, okay, I might as well. Are you getting an apartment?" He nods and I smile.

"So uhm, does this mean we're back together?" He looks into my eyes and cups my cheek, like Michael did earlier.

"You tell me, you're the one who put us on hold in the first place." I look up at him, he nods, smiles and leans in to kiss me.

We get out the truck and bring in all the decorations in the warehouse. I walk over to the table that Mikey is at, and sit down. He looks up at me, then goes back to what he's doing.

"Calum asked me to move in with him." I mention and he scoffs.

"What was his reaction when you told him no?" He looks at me.

"Well, I kinda, sorta, said yes..." I look down at my hands and he scoffs again, before getting up and walking away. "What did you expect me to do, 'Sorry Cal I kissed Michael, so I can't, even though there's no chance of Michael and I being an item I can't move in with you.' No. I'm moving in with him because I love him." I pull him into a room and lock the door.

"Do you Alex? Do you love him?" He walks closer to me.

"My name is Leah, yes I love him." I look up at Mike and he's filled the gap between us.

"Are you sure?" He starts to lean in and there is a knock on the door.

"Leah? You in there?" It's Cal.

"I'm sure." I whisper to Mike and walk out.

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I get to my house and go straight to my room. I lay on the bed and let out a huge sigh. I hear a knock on my door and I get up to answer it. It's Ashton. He's standing there with a mad look on his face, I open the door and walk back to my bed, laying back down.

"When were you going to tell me?" He stood by my bed with his arms crossed.

"What? That I dropped out? I just did that today." I shrug.

"No, you know what I'm talking about, 'genius'. You know everything, why are you even still here? I know who's side your on." Oh fuck.

"Who fucking cares? Is it really that big of a deal?" I shrug and pretend I don't know anything. "You and Calum got in a fight, so? It happens all the time, you guys had a misunderstanding, I don't care." He gives me a confused look.

"Oh uhm, yeah I guess you're right. Sorry." He walks out of my room very slowly, when the door closes I let out a breath i didn't know I was holding in.

I really need to tell him soon, I'm sure he'll know that I know when I move in with Calum. I feel bad though, I mean, his mom is in America for a 'business trip' and I'm sure that when I move out he'll be all alone. I need to tell him within the next week though, because I move with Calum in 2 weeks. I have no idea how this is going to go down, how is Ash going to react, how is Michael going to act? How am I going to handle this? I need to think really hard these next few weeks, Calum is going to America for 2 weeks, right after we move in together he's leaving. I'm either going to stay by myself or, with Michael. Myself. I honestly don't don't what to do at this moment, I'm so overwhelmed by all of this, I should probably start packing. 

I walk down the stairs and grab my bag.

"Where are you going?" Ashton asks from the couch.

"I'm going to go get some boxes from the hardware store." 

"Why would you need boxes?" He raises and eyebrow.

"I'm cleaning out my room..." I say and he nods slowly.

I walk out the house and down the street, towards the hardware store. The walk is a little long, so I walk to Mikey's instead, to ask for a ride. I walk up his lawn and knock on his door, it swings open, revealing a very sleepy Mike.

"Hey, can I come in?" He opens the door, but stays silent.

"What's up?" He asks as we walk up to his room.

"I was going to ask for a ride to the hardware store, I need to get some boxes," I just remembered I need to somehow get my furniture to the new apartment. "Fuck, and I need to get my furniture." I say that part just below a whisper, so that he doesn't hear it, but he does.

"I can help... Who's going to stay with you while Cal is gone?" He plops down on in his bed, I sit in his chair. "I mean, I don't think you'll want me staying there, it won't end well."

"Yeah, Cal might not like tha-" I'm cut off by Michael.

"Wait, are you guys still together, last I heard, you guys are on hold." He looks up at me and smirks.

"I honestly have no idea, and I'm really getting tired of his shit. He expects me to revolve my life around him, no. I'm a teen girl, I have hormones, and needs, and problems of my own. He should know that, and I'm tired of it. I love him so much, but I just, I don't know. He pisses me off." I finish my rant and he chuckles.

"I can help you with that," He sits up. "I mean, your 'needs', not with Calum. He's always a jerk." He stands up and walks over to me, grabbing my hand and pulling me up.

"No, Mike," He moves my hair from my neck and starts to kiss my neck, stopping at my collar bone and sucking on my sweet spot, making me moan. "Stop." I push him away lightly.

"Why? You know you like the way I make you feel, I won't tell Calum. It can be our little secret." He grabs my waist and pulls me closer to him, kissing my neck yet again.

"Mikey," I try to tell him to stop, but it comes out more like a moan. "Please..." 

"What do you want Leah?" He whispers in my ear.

"You." I state, that's all it takes, he throws me on the bed and attaches his lips to mine.

My hands roam his body, his do the same to mine. He goes to remove his shirt and we part lips for that moment, catching our breath. I feel him run his hand up and down my thigh, as my hands roam his chest. Then, my eyes flutter open, it was a dream. This whole time I was sleeping. The last real thing that happened was Ashton telling me 'he knows'. Now I know something new... I have feelings for Michael. 

I get out of bed and grab my phone, calling Calum.

"Hello?" He answers instantly.

"Can I come over?" I ask.

"Yeah, are you spending the night?" I nod even though he can't see me.

"Yeah." I feel so guilty. "I'll be there soon."

"Okay, Mike is here too." Fuck.

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