Meant to be

Chapter 22

(Pov Yn)

*A few days later*

I'm sitting on Wanda's bed, waiting for her to finish her shower. I'm crying. I think I'm having a nervous breakdown again. Scout is in the living room with the other avengers. I grab my phone and see I have 15 missed calls and 37 new messages. They come from Amelia, Lexie and Maggie. I immediately get worried and open the messages. Lexie has send me a screenshot of a news item. ''TONY STARKS NEW ADOPTED KID IS WANDA'S NEW GIRLFRIEND'' oh shit. This is bad, really bad... 'Wanda!' I yell while I wait for her to come out of the bathroom. I quickly wipe away my tears because I don't want Wanda to see I've been crying. The bathroom door almost immediately opens and Wanda runs towards me like I'm dying. 'What's wrong baby? Are you okay?' she asks while she checks me. 'No, I don't think I am...' I say while I show her the screenshot. 'Oh crap... we have to talk to your dad about this!' Wanda says while walks towards the door. 'Wanda... wait.... ' I stop her. She turns around to face me. 'You don't have to go talk to my dad, because I'm breaking up with you.' I say, trying to hold back tears. Wanda looks at me as if I just had made the most stupid joke in the world. 'Very funny Yn.' Wanda says. She turns back towards the door. 'Wanda come back, I'm serious.' I say as insensitive as I can. I don't want her to know that I really don't want to do this. 'You got to be joking.' Wanda says, raising her voice a little bit. 'No Wanda I'm not joking. I'm bad for you and you know it. I ruin everything. You deserve someone better than me. Someone who doesn't almost kills herself after being alone for like thirty minutes or something. I am damaged and I break everything I touch.' I say holding back tears. 'You know that isn't true Yn...' Wanda tries to convince me with tears in her eyes. 'FOR GOD SAKE LOOK AT MY FUCKING ARMS WANDA! AND IF THAT ISN'T ENOUGH I'LL SHOW YOU MY LEGS TOO!' I yell, crying now. Wanda stares at my arms. Both my wrists are covered with band-aid. 'We'll figure this out Yn, I want to help you.' She says calmly. 'YOU CAN'T HELP ME WANDA. WHY DON'T YOU GET THAT. THERE IS NO FIXING ME. I WANT TO FUCKING DIE!' I keep screaming. Wanda stares at me, she doesn't know what to say. Tears fall down my face while I try my best looking mad at her, but it breaks my heart to see Wanda like this. 'You can do whatever you want. I'm not leaving you Yn. A few days ago in the hospital I told you my life means nothing to me if you aren't in it. I love you, and I know you love me too. ' Wanda says hopeful. 'I didn't mean what I said in the hospital, I don't love you Wanda. I never did, and I never will. SO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!' I scream trying to sound as convincing as possible. 'How can you say that Yn?' Wanda asks in disbelieve. I look away, scared to face her. Wanda turns around and walks away, closing the door behind her. 'How could you be so stupid! How could you be so fucking stupid!' I scream towards myself while I burst out in tears. The voice in my head is louder then ever. *I was right the whole time. You are pure poison. You ruin everything you touch and Wanda finally realizes it too. You are useless and nobody loves you, just look at yourself. You are disgusting. You are such a fat pig I-* The voice says, but I can't handle it anymore. 'SHUT THE FUCK UP!' I scream while I start hitting myself on my head. *PLEASE JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP!* I get up and run towards the bathroom. I open all the cabinets and keep searching. Then I finally find a razorblade.

(Hey people, yep, I'm back. I decided to continue writing this story . The truth is I haven't been doing great the last months and didn't have motivation to keep writing so I kind off quit for a while I guess. But I'm back now and I really want to keep writing so I hope I will. I'm very sorry for letting you wait for such a long time (again!) Anyway, please let me know what you think of the story for so far. Feel free to send me ideas for the story if you want to! And please don't forget to vote for this chapter if you like it. Bye <3)

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