I love you, so I forgive you.

ILYsoIFY 21

"Well, I think I'm gonna have to head home now and give you to besties some time together." I say as I just drank the last sip of the bottle of water Jen gave me.  "Well, you don't HAVE to go..." Jennifer said. Probably she just says this because she feels sorry for me...

I'm gonna have to show her I'm strong. Not some sad little crybag. So I stand up and walk a few feet away. "Nahh, I'm going to take a look if James Bond is at my place again." Leah and Jennifer both laugh. "See?? I told you she was funny!!" Leah yells to Jennifer. "You talked about me..?" I'm getting curious what Leah said about me to Jen.

"Yeahh.. just a little honey, don't you worry. Only that you're a huge huge jlover.."Jennifer smiles at me. Oh my goshhh I'm just.. She's just.. FLAWLESSSSS!

"Soooo before you go.. wanna take a bunch of selfies to post on your jlover instagram or to share with your jlover chats on whatsapp?" She grins at me and I can't help but blush. "Only if you want to.." I say and I really really really hope she wants to.

"Of course baby, since we're all here anyway and there are no other screaming fans around that want to go on the pic with me, I'm all yours." She taps on the empty place next to her on the couch. "Oh well, why not?" I, probably a little bit too fast and enthousiastic, kind of run towards her and almost jump next to her.

"Do you wanna see the jlover chats and maybe even record a video or audio fort hem?" I give my widest beg smile ever. "Sure, let me see! It's kinda weird people have chats about me.. Lol, I'm curious what you all say about me."

I grab my phone and check first if they said normal, appropriate things. (Sometimes the entire chat is spammed with pics and videos of the sex scene of tbnd)

I'm glad it all looks normal now. I show it to Jennifer and she laughs. "Oh my God, so many pics! And so many groups you have!!  Whoa this is crazy!" Wait, is she getting shy? Adorable! Well I think everyone would if thousands of people had special chats about you on whatsapp.

"Let me record an audio to them to say you're here with me." I say and push the record button. "Hey giiirls!! You won't believe who's with me here right now!!" I scream and wait a few seconds before they listened to it and answered. In the mean time, Jennifer grabs her phone and we take some selfies. She's so beautiful I'm ruining the picture!

Oh Ciarra sent an audio back. "Oh my God who is it???" "Tell uuuss!" Is the next audio from Rim. Then Jonah typed the excited screaming emojis with the blue heads.

"Shall we tell them?" Jennifer grins. "Okay."

I push the record button and Jennifer talks "Hey girls, I'm Jennifer and it's so funny to see that you have this chat! I love how you all are united because of me and I love you all!!" she stops talking and before I stop recording I say: "Tadaaaaaa! Surprise giiiirls!!" As a proof that she's really here on this excact same moment and it's not an old message of Jennifer to other jlovers.

Then they all start screaming in the audios and it's so so funny and cool that they're so happy now!

"Oh my god this is so much fun!!" Jennifer says. "Now let me see your Instagram page. Do I follow you already or not?" "Which one do you want? My jlover account or my personal account?" I ask her to know on which one I have to log in.

"How about I follow both??" Jen proposes. "Omg you would do that??" "Sure! I'd love to!" I give her my personal account and log in on my jlover account @i_am_a_jlover so she can see that one too.

"Okay honey I'll follow you and Leah, I sent you the selfies, can you send them forward to Riley? Sorry Riley, only my very very close friends have my number because I don't want it to leach so all jlovers will call me, you understand?"

"Oh yeah of course! That's fine! I'm thrilled to have met you already!!" Leah sends the pics to me and I post the best ones to Instagram. This is awesome. Jennifer even comments on it "Having fun times with you sweetie!! ❤❤"

"Awh Jennifer, Thank you so so much for doing all this! You're the best idol in the world!!"

We talk for a few more minutes and then I decide to really head home now so Jennifer and Leah can have their own conversations. Even tho Leah brought me here with the car, I decide to walk home.

It's kind of 45 minutes walking, but I'm so excited and full of energy right now, I'll enjoy a long walk.

I stand up and Leah and Jennifer hug me. I greet Sofia and Leah walks me out of the door. I thank Leah one more time for everything, for being such a good help for me and I'm telling her that Sofia can always stay or even sleep at my place when Leah needs some time for herself. She hugs me one last time and I start walking.

This day has been the most awesome day of my life!! And I feel like there will be plenty more of these days!