Ddot was in his room on his phone. He's been so lonely for the past week because dd was gone on vacation. He was on a family trip in Cabo and it was already planned months before him and dd even met. Ddot would have loved to see his baby eating the girls up with his fits😫, but it wasn't finna happen.
DDOT POV SWITCH:
I really missed dd, he's been gone for too long now and I need him to come back homee. I decided to text him, once again.
My Wholeheartt💓😫 Me - Hey babyyyy My Wholeheartt💓😫-Hey bae!
Me - I miss you so muchh My Wholeheartt💓😫- I miss you too😕 it's been so lonely without you here but I'm coming back today so we can finally see eachother again.
Me - I CANT WAITTTT IM FINNA NUT ON YO FACE AND ALL THAT SHITT😝
My Wholeheartt💓😫- I CANT WAIT EITHER I JUST WANNA SEE YOUUU
Me - can I get a pic??
My Wholeheartt💓😫-
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Me - WHY TF YOU SO FINE FORR😍😍
My Wholeheartt💓😫 - bae that's all youuu😘
Me - no it's definitely you🤩
My Wholeheartt💓😫- ugh whatever but ima see you in like an hour just got off the plane, we heading to yo place RN!!
Me - this dicc waiting for you!!
My Wholeheartt💓😫- 😭😭 (Read 4:32 P.M.) ———————————————————————————— Dd was on his way. I needed to fix my hair, so I went into the bathroom and started taking my braids down. Once I was finished I changed my fit and went downstairs waiting for him. I had on my tan essentials matching set. I was in the kitchen looking for sum to eat when I heard the doorbell ring. I ran almost slipping and falling to get to the door. "Hey bab-" dd said before he got cut off with a long kiss from me. The kiss was elegant and passionate. I missed him so much it didn't even make sense. Finally we both pulled away struggling to breathe. "Damn I was only gone for a week" he said laughing and coming into the house. "I know but I've been so lonely without you" I said picking him up as he wrapped his legs around my waist. "I missed you too baby" he said kissing my forehead.
I watched dd as he showed me the pictures that was taken during his vacation. I wasn't really worried about how he looked there, but more so how he looked right now. He looked peaceful and majestic. Quiet and sweet. Even though he was in a gang, he never really showed the tough side of him most of the time. I was staring at him when he started screaming. "WHAT" he said getting up from my lap and looking at his phone. "What happened" I asked concerned. "Bro dudeylo just said edot died due to suicide" he said eyes starting to water. I could hear the pain in his voice, soon dd bursted out into tears. "Bae it's ok let it all out" I said pulling him into my chest. Dd just can't seem to catch a break. First Notti and now edot, his life was cursed fr. "Why do I have to lose everybody, it's just not fair, it's all my fault it's always my fault, I should've been there more I should've checked on him more, i should've made sure he was ok" he said crying into my shoulder. "Hey don't feel bad none of this is your fault, you can't blame yourself for someone else's pain, he's with Notti now, he's finally at peace" I said calming him down.
DD POV SWITCH
I just found out edot died. Edot was like a 3rd big brother to me. He bought me shoes, he helped me blow up, he took care of me, he always gave me the best advice, and much more. I feel numb. I can't feel pain anymore, I want to be with Notti and edot, I don't want to feel alone anymore even when I'm not. I had to do something quick. "Im gonna go to the bathroom and take a shower to clear my mind" I told ddot getting out of his arms and going upstairs. When I got upstairs I went into the bathroom and looked for a knife. Of course they don't have a knife up here. The sharpest thing I could think of was a piece of glass. I spotted a hand held mirror in the corner of the counter and suddenly got an idea. I shattered the mirror down on the floor and it broke into pieces. I ran some water for a bath and went to go look for a piece of paper and a pencil in his room. I found some in his desk and wrote a quick note.
~ the note ~ Dear ddot, I love you so much but I feel as if my time is up. I'm not happy with my life nor myself. Once I lost Notti I became generally numb, and I haven't felt pain ever since. Now that edot's gone my depression's gotten worst. I don't wanna be alive anymore, I wanna end it all. I'm so sorry for putting you through this pain but I can't bare to live like this anymore. I'm so thankful for how you've treated me and how you've been there for me more than anybody in this world. But it's my turn to let go, don't feel ashamed, and don't beat yourself up about it. Just know I did this for my happiness. Love you forever and make sure you tell my family I love them so much too.
Sincerely, DD —————————————————————————— Once I was finished I sat the note down on the counter and prepared myself. Soon I stepped in the bathtub, shortly after cutting my wrist with the sharp piece of glass. It didn't hurt, it actually felt good. Before I knew it, one cut led to three, then three led to six, then six led to nine and soon I had cuts all up my arms. I laid myself down in the tub. Letting myself sink. This was what I wanted and now I'm getting it.
DDOT POV SWITCH
Dd was taking too long. I walked upstairs and I didn't hear water running. "Dd you good" I said. No reply. "Bae you good" I said a little louder. No reply. I then walked in and saw dd in the bathtub sinking. I dropped to my knees crying and rised him out of the water. He wasn't breathing and he had cuts all over his arms. "No no no, dd wake up, wake up dd please why would you do this" I said crying. I grabbed my phone out of my pocket shaking uncontrollably. I called 911 and they sent an ambulance to my house. I tried CPR on him but it didn't work. As soon as the ambulance came and loaded him into the truck I hopped in and held his hand, while crying the whole way.
I can't lose him, but I might just have. ———————————————————————————— THANK YALL FOR SO MANY MORE READS!! I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCHHH ( anyway rip edot🕊️💔 fly high mh) but hope y'all like this chapter💓
