this side of paradise [jasper jordan x fem! oc]

inclement weather

as i sit there, watching my siblings burn, i reach to help, but the glass separating us stops my hand, "NO" i cry out, but my screams are not heard. i watch them burn in the flames i started. they scream and cry for my help, but i cannot get to them. "what have i done?" i ask myself. "what did i do?"

my eyes jolt awake, the nightmare giving me whip lash. i breath in the tight air and let it out, letting my body sink into the mattress. i look up at the clock, 5:14am. everyone is sleeping, including my boyfriend who lays beside me, at peace.

i look up at the box i had been gifted, and quietly grab it. i pull out the ipod and put the headphones in. automatically, "just like heaven" by the cure starts playing. i pick up the journal and pen, setting the box back. i open the journal and let my emotions flow through my hand.

i wish i could restart, because without you i'll fall apart. my body will crumble and my brain will melt. you keep me stable, without you im nothing but a label. without you im not me, what else can i be? i wont lose hope in you. i promise through and through, i will find you, and when i do, im never letting go of you. i hold you tight in my arms, and never let you close to harm. your braids like a pattern, i love you to the moon and to saturn. you are my home, and although im lost, the stars will always bring us back together. and we'll move to the north forever.

after a few hours, everyone had begun to awaken and i put my stuff back on the night stand. jaspers exaggerated groan alerted me that he was awake, he turned to me with a goofy grin and i giggled at him. he grabbed onto me and pulled me closer to him, resting his head on my chest. i ran my fingers through his hair and down his back, letting him lay in peace.

it didnt take long for the others to rise from their beds. i grabbed the hair brush i had been given, and run it through my hair, getting the tangles out, then i braided it to the side.

jasper had walked over to clarke and montys bunk, talking to clarke, i got up and walked over to them.

"miller!" i hear from across the room, i turn to the door to see maya and miller walk in. "look who finally got released" jasper smiles, i nod my head at miller, and he mirrors my action. "hey"

"miller.." clarke speaks, "glad your okay."

he nods his head, "yeah, only took about.. 3 surgeries?" he looks at maya and she nodds"i hear your fitting right in" he directs to clarke

clarke looks down at maya, and sighs, we go silent before maya pulls a pill bottle out, she hands it to miller, "twice a day. dont forget." miller nods, and jones approaches maya, using his secret charisma to make her smile. i watch as they walk around the room, talking.

jasper bumps his shoulder with mine and i look up at him, "do you wanna go to breakfast?" he asks. i smile, "of course. lets invite maya and jones" i grab his hand and walk towards them, but before i could as them to join us, an alarm starts wailing. maya apologizes, hurrying to leave the room, leaving jones looking dejected. clarke jumps down from her bunk, cutting maya off.

"hey, whats going on?"

"that signal means patrol is back and someone needs medical attention." maya informs clarke, "i have to go to quarantine." she hurries off.

clarke moves to follow her, and jasper grabs her wrist. "hey clarke, what are you doing?"

"maybe they found survivors. if our people are hurt, we have the rights to know." this caught my attention. "i'm pretty sure we shouldn't just go wandering around..." clarke started running before jasper could finish, and i didnt hesitate to run after her, jasper running behind us.

we ran down the halls, and into the quarantine area. as the doctors put on their suits, a man explains what they're dealing with. "who attacked them?" clarke asks, and they look at her confused. "what are they doing here?" the man asks maya.