Alone

Chapter 32

Hayley pov

I just continue to stare at him, why is this guy in my room, wait a minute this guy could be a creep and he could hurt me where is Calum or anyone when you need them, to suddenly appear.

I quickly get out of the bed and push the guy out the way and go looking for someone. I run down the hall and the stairs and into the lounge I noticed it got harder to breath but I found jack.

I quickly run over to him.

"Jack a p-person i-in my room" I say whilst still trying to breath as my hand are wrapped around my ribs as I saw jack looked concerned and then it looked like he realised what happened as he looked somewhere and started laughing.

"What a-are you laug-hing at" i say as he turned me around and I saw it was the guy who was in my room.

" oh Hayley that guy he's my boyfriend and why did you run that wasn't a good idea given your condition" he says his jockey ton replaced with seriousness like he used to did back then.

Hold on his boyfriend, I totally forgot that Calum said Jack was coming over with a guest but how did his boyfriend know how to help me with a panic attack. I will ask about that later.

"I-I didn't know what he was going to do" i say as I see Calum walk in with the other not far behind him with drinks in their hands apart from Ashton who is not here.

"Do you guys want to sit down, hey sis you awake? why are you holding your ribs." He says I quickly let go of my ribs and not looking at anyone.

"I wasn't it was your imagination" i say before I saw jack boyfriend come close to me.

"I am Ben Acres I'm 24 I work at the same hospital that they all work at, me and jack stated dating a year ago, sorry for scaring you." He says gently before saying.

"And she was running because I saw her having a nightmare so I tried to wake her up and she ended up having a panic attack so I mange to get her to calm herself down. before I could say anything she run out the room and then I'm assuming she found jack as I came down, I could tell she also made herself out of breath by running which put strain on her ribs"he says how the fuck dose he know this stuff oh right he works at the hospital.

I look at Ben to see him looking guilty and see Calum looking concerned I am so not used to people being concerned about me all the time.
I will probably have to get used to this.

"Oh yeah how do you know what to do to help me calm my breathing down" I say as I saw Ben and Calum look at each other befor Calum nods.

"I work at the hospital as a psychologist that how I knew what was happening and I will -" Ben says before Ashton walks in quickly interrupts what Ben was going to say.

"Dinners ready" he spoke loud enough so everyone herd him as we sat down and condensation started happening as we all ate dinner, i eat more then over the past couple of days, just before I left Micheal decided to speak.

"Why don't you tell Ben a bit about yourself Hayley?"Micheal says as I give him a wtf are you doing look as everyone look at me. Has Calum told him that he's trying to make me go to a psychologist when I said no to it.

"Well you know my name I am 16 and Calum sister and that's it really" I spoke not really sure what to say apart from 'hey my names Hayley and I was abused by my foster parents from the age of 4-5 so yes, I only found Calum recently and had to see my abuser yesterday so everything is normal and I'm completely fine.
I wonder what Ben was going to say before Jack interrupted him.

"What about your hobbies" jack says as he smiles at me and everyone attention is on me again.

"I like drawing and playing the guitar" I say as I start feeling frustrated fiddling with my rings around my fingers try to distract me.

But it doesn't help I can still here them asking me question after question. Waiting for me to answer, why don't they just have normal conversations and can't I just go now anyway everyone finished eating.

What's up with everyone wanting me to talk I've done enough talking can't they just give me a break. 

I stand up and put my good hand on the table and look at everyone. As I made eye contact with Calum as I felt anger well up inside me, what I've held in before just comes out before I can even control or think of what I'm saying.

"Can't you just stop trying to ask me question for fuck sack and if you really thought I wouldn't see though you idea Calum your wrong, so you all spend some time with me. Jack who knew me from a couple of years ago and apart from Ben who I've just meet. Who just so happens to be a psychologist. Yaayy" I say as I laugh, Maybe I have gone crazy like finally being away from Greg and Susan and their torture methods did really affect me.

I realised I had spaced out for few seconds and before anyone could speak I carry on with my little speech.

"Look I know you want to be this brother and the others want to be their for me. maybe I'm just not used to it okay, this-this overbearing affection and people actually wanting to get to know me not just people Who want to use me. okay I may have a few issues here and their but IM NOT GOING TO A PSCH. I'm not the psycho the people who should get a pych check should be the psychos who did this to me and cause because of them they made me like this person who I don't even know or recognise to begin with." I say as I realised I had tears streaming down my face as everyone faces where covered by shock especially Ben.

Maybe I'm just unstable that I never noticed with all the abuse going on, but now I notice it I don't think they will be a way to get though it,without me finding a way to cope.

With that thought and what I had said, I was in no mood to talk so I walk out and was going upstairs i mange to get to my bedroom whilst wiping the tears away but they won't stop running like a waterfall. Now Calum going to be so mad at me i just shouted at him and with a guest, he probably going to punish me they all are just like they did. Before my brain can catch up with me I got sucked up in flashbacks and I end up laying in the floor with my head resting on my door just outside my bedroom.

I have no clue how long I was on there or when i herd voices speaking but all was muffled.

After the thoughts and the memories entered rest of the night was a blur.